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Im a addict. My dear Im a addict. I have looked up NA meetings. I think I am going to try and make one today. I keep telling myself I can get threw this. I am just am not sure anymore. I broke down and took some oxy today. I made it 6 fucking days. And I broke down. Im so ashamed of myself. So I need to start somewhere. I need help. Im lost and scared. Im in my head. But its not like me in here. Someone else is controlling me. Im scared.