Mar 19, 2011 13:38
Desire... what is desire to us today? Desire, regret, hope. As I get older they seem to hold so much more meaning then they once had. Regrets, I have a million of petty regrets. But there is one that Im worried I will never be able to make up for. I had once had you. you were mine, and I was yours. I still feel that lingering contentment. I feel your touch on my finger tips. I let go, my one big regret. With all the faith, all the hope I have inside. We still have that burning desire for one anotbher. That desire that has become such a part of you that you would feel lost without it. Empty without it. You can go forth in life but never back. Im told to move on, to learn from my mistakes. But what if that mistake has cost me the happiness to the rest of my life? I am forever going to be comparing everyone to the one I walked away from. Forever going to set myself up for disapointment. No one can come close to what I once had, to what once belonged to me. So I try and make due with having you so close I can feel you. Feel your desire, your love. Due with it over powering me. Taking me over. Deal with that fire of desire that cant be satisfied. That yearning, that hope that you can't risk letting slip away. I lost you once, I may never fully have you again. I find both my greatist stength and weakest flaw inside my love for you. But nothing feels like it belongs inside me more. I am truly lost without you. So I keep the faith, I hold on to that hope. I give in to that desire...