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[gettomonkey]

I am so so so tired of feeling like I'm losing my mind. I feel so out of control. I have started using again. I am using getting high for all the wrong reasons. I want to just chill and not worry so much about everything. I want to be able to breath. I can't anymore. I can't see stright Icant think clearly. I hide so much and I'm so tired of hiding. My head hurts, I want a ciggerett, I want to get decent sleep. Ahhhh why can't I get ahold of myself?

Is anyone else having issues like this?