midnight runs
of course, things have changed.
let's see how far it goes...
i went to the bills game yesterday and watched them finally win. it was great being wasted and hanging out with my cousin and relaxing about spending money and just letting myself have a good time.
the life plan i had has since been revised according to my unstable relationship. honestly, i don't know whats going on in her head or her heart and at this point all i can do is stick along for the ride. suppose its karma. (what goes around comes around?)
[edit] just because i had to put this in here:
Horoscope Overview October 22, 2007:
"The past is returning to haunt you or help you, depending on what you were up to back then. Karma isn't always as obvious as it is today, so it's a good reminder to stay on the universe's good side."
suprisingly, i'm not jumping into something new, some distraction to make myself feel better. i feel solid even though its sad, i don't feel like i'm losing myself.
but i don't know when i'm moving to ny now exactly. i'm pretty sure things didn't go thru for a great space blair and i tried to look into. its too bad because it is fucking beautiful... but it would have altered my california plans. it looks like thats goin to work out and i'm both happy and nervous about it. money money money.
other than that i'm an insomniac and have developed a slight eye twich - both due to stress i can only guess. insomnia is the worst too because the days just happen to you and i'm fighting every second to keep my head up but couldn't fall to a deep sleep anyway. everyone has told me how tired i look for the past week and i really hope this passes.
i started going for runs at midnight - my only sanity.
this weather i think is saving me because although my body clock is telling me to fall into some sort of autumn depression, going outside in a t-shirt makes everything feel amazing.
let's see how far it goes...
i went to the bills game yesterday and watched them finally win. it was great being wasted and hanging out with my cousin and relaxing about spending money and just letting myself have a good time.
the life plan i had has since been revised according to my unstable relationship. honestly, i don't know whats going on in her head or her heart and at this point all i can do is stick along for the ride. suppose its karma. (what goes around comes around?)
[edit] just because i had to put this in here:
Horoscope Overview October 22, 2007:
"The past is returning to haunt you or help you, depending on what you were up to back then. Karma isn't always as obvious as it is today, so it's a good reminder to stay on the universe's good side."
suprisingly, i'm not jumping into something new, some distraction to make myself feel better. i feel solid even though its sad, i don't feel like i'm losing myself.
but i don't know when i'm moving to ny now exactly. i'm pretty sure things didn't go thru for a great space blair and i tried to look into. its too bad because it is fucking beautiful... but it would have altered my california plans. it looks like thats goin to work out and i'm both happy and nervous about it. money money money.
other than that i'm an insomniac and have developed a slight eye twich - both due to stress i can only guess. insomnia is the worst too because the days just happen to you and i'm fighting every second to keep my head up but couldn't fall to a deep sleep anyway. everyone has told me how tired i look for the past week and i really hope this passes.
i started going for runs at midnight - my only sanity.
this weather i think is saving me because although my body clock is telling me to fall into some sort of autumn depression, going outside in a t-shirt makes everything feel amazing.