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[getbacketernity]

im really  upset. ive been listening to when the levee breaks all day because it is my sad time song. there are plenty of people i could talk to about it but i dont want to burden my\self on them, and im not seeing david for two weeks. my jeremy is very sick. everyone said expect him not to live for very long because hes just a fish but its upsetting anyway. i almost cry every time i go up to check on him, hes always limply floating on the top breathing shallowly and he can barely swim. im hoping hell get better because he did this once before and got better, but i did everything i can think of to help him and hes just getting worse. i dont know whether i should put him in a different container or not because he shares a bowl with his buddy terry, and i see terry swimming up to jeremy and around him like "hey buddy whats wrong?" and jeremy just sits there, and it doesnt seem very fair to terry. but i dont want to be, like, condemning jeremy to die in his little death container. i also dont know whether i should get a new fish after he dies. i hate the idea of replacing pets or people who died, but terrys lived with someone else his entire life and i dont want him to be alone. 
that on top of old shit and the fact that i have to see chris all the time im not in the mood to do anything today though i had plans.