[Khydann]
((Whee long!))
Haven't written in a while - been busy. And been avoiding it, to tell the truth. For one thing, I feel self-concious about writing in my journal when Rosh is around, and given that we're living together these days, that happens pretty often. I know he doesn't mind, and wouldn't read it without my permission... it just, I dunno. Makes it harder for me to write.
I mean, I don't have to write this stuff down, right? It's not like I made a promise to anybody that I'd do it, or that somebody is reading this who doesn't know me. Who isn't me. So why do I even write this down anyway? ((doodle)) Because when I read back over the stuff I've written I remember things I otherwise would have forgotten, and I remember how it felt then, and see that sometimes I wrote things that make me smile. So now I'll write some of the stuff that's happened to me lately, so that when I pick this up again and read it months from now, I'll remember. Also, I forget things pretty often, so it's good to write down stuff before it dissapears out of my head.
So, first thing: I took Zekett's talisman to Proudwolf, and he did his thing with the spirits. He wasn't able to give me much more information than I already knew - there's a connection, her spirit is somewhere but he couldn't figure out where. It's frustrating. He told me to ask some of the more experienced shamen... I'm not sure if I'm going to do that or not. I do need to talk to the druids, and ask around in the spirit caves.
I saw a poster in Ratchet about a spirit talker working out of Booty Bay, and went to her. She told me that Zekett was over the ocean - which made sense at the time, but now that I think about it, if Zek was on the Eastern continent, she wouldn't be over the ocean from Booty Bay, would she? Maybe she's on an island up east. Anyway, the spirit talker - she was Forsaken, I didn't know they could do things like this, but I guess some people just have unusual talents - also talked about darkness, and fighting, and danger. Until I find out where Zek is, there's nothing I can do for her, but keep looking and hoping. I hope we can find her soon. I need to go back to that spirit talker and see what else she can tell me. I've left a few messages, but she hasn't been available for another session since then - probably busy talking to other people.
Went to Brewfest with Roshanar, met up with Grub there, fought off those very determined dwarfs. Drank more than I'm used to. Poor Rosh, on the way home he had to stop in the bushes a couple of times. I was fine - well, until the next morning, then I was sick off the edge of Thunder Bluff. Grub was very intense about the idea of Rosh and I getting married. I don't really understand why, other than that he's one of the Earthmother's born meddlers. Or maybe he just wants an excuse for a party. I hadn't known he was married before - and to a Shu'halo! I wonder what happened to his wife...
I haven't talked to Rosh about the marriage thing since then, really, other than a few joking comments. It seems like everybody's thinking about it - Proudwolf is getting married! I don't know. It's not that I don't want to, it's just... it's such a big deal, so public, and there's all the ceremony and everything. And I keep hearing about people getting married, or engaged or whatever, and then they split up again. Like the orc, Bloodaxe. He announced at a Kodo a while back that he was engaged to Briary, a Shu'halo (what is it with other races wanting to hitch up with Shu'halo women?) - he yelled it, pretty much, and they both seemed happy. That was a couple of months ago. But I guess she returned his ring just now, and said it was off. I don't know him well enough to know - I mean, he's pretty stoic and quiet most times. I overheard people trying to cheer him up the other night at the Kodo. Getting engaged - or getting married - isn't a guarantee. And it seems so much worse if you tell everybody you know that you're going to get married, or do go ahead and get married, and then later have to tell everybody you know that you aren't married anymore. Then people try and cheer you up awkwardly. I've had enough of that about Zekett. It's one of the reasons I don't go talking about her to everybody. I don't know what to say, and they don't know what to say, but they feel like they have to try, and it gets all awkward and uncomfortable. I'll have to think about it some more.
I did go hunt up some kodo leather yesterday, though. It was very nice... riding around Mulgore, helping thin down the harpies, picking a few herbs, just hunting kodo casually. Which seems so odd when I think about it like that. I remember when a kodo hunt was - well, you got a dozen people together, it was an event, and you brought along some healers in case somebody was badly injured. But now - I've been staying in practice hunting clefthoof in Nagrand, they're much fiercer and tougher. I send up a signal to the watchers on the Bluff so they can send braves down to gather the meat and bones - I've only been keeping the hides. It's a bit disturbing, how easy it is for me now. Especially in Mulgore, especially with kodo, I do my best to be mindful of every kill I make.
Our things from the hut in Garadar finally arrived a couple of days ago, in crates. It was hard going through everything. I've saved all of Zekett's stuff, even her engineering stuff, unless it seemed unstable or explosive. I'm sure she can make more when I bring her home. I found a pair of goggles she made... I think she made them for me. The straps are definitely made for a Shu'halo head, anyway. I've gotten into the habit of wearing them. It's... a way to remember her they're very useful. I've been working on weaving her talisman into an armband again, and when it's done I'll wear that, too. For now, I'm carrying it around in a pouch.
Last night I met a young druid... I say young, he was about my age, really. Just - never been out of Mulgore. I think it's good to be reminded sometimes of what it's like for the people who stay at home, on the Bluff. Trying to explain about Silvermoon, talking about gnomes and troggs and the Titans... I've seen stuff that makes me believe in the Titans, but I don't know how their story has to do with the Earthmother. I've gotten into the habit of thinking of the Earthmother as an abstract concept, and the druid reminded me of her as a living, physical being - as the spirit and body of the living earth. I can't ever take back the things I've done, the things I've seen, but sometimes I wish I could, and just be a brave in Mulgore, knowing about the Earthmother and the seasons and animals, and not concerned about the Legion or undead or all the other crazy things out there. Some of us have to go out and be the shield, so others can have peaceful lives at home. I think that Roshanar feels the same way, and that's why he talks about when the wars end, and what he'd like to do when he doesn't have to be a warrior anymore. I don't think he believes that the wars will ever really end, any more than I do.
There's appeal in the idea of chucking it all, leaving all the complications aside - putting my armor and weapons in the bank, making my own clothes and tools out of kodo hides and harpy bones, living in Mulgore and letting my whole life be that - patrolling, feeding and protecting the tribe, long slow uneventful days of green hills and solitude.
I'd miss my dragon, though.
Oh, one more thing, a note to myself - some of the senior hunters have been talking about this new technique of training animals that allows them to train creatures that have never been tameable before. I don't know many facts, but I've heard rumours that they've tamed some of the devilsaurs from Un'goro - and even Silithids! It made me think about a story I heard, about a giant two-headed white wolf that lives in a cave on the islands the draenei crashed into. If I can learn this new training method, I'm going to take a trip over there and see if I can find this wolf and bring it home. Or maybe a trip to Un'goro, to tame a devilsaur... that seems like a challenge! I keep pestering the hunter trainers in Thunder Bluff about it, but they say they don't know much more than that. They've promised to send me a letter when more solid news comes through.
Hmm... I think that's everything I wanted to write about, at least for today.
Haven't written in a while - been busy. And been avoiding it, to tell the truth. For one thing, I feel self-concious about writing in my journal when Rosh is around, and given that we're living together these days, that happens pretty often. I know he doesn't mind, and wouldn't read it without my permission... it just, I dunno. Makes it harder for me to write.
I mean, I don't have to write this stuff down, right? It's not like I made a promise to anybody that I'd do it, or that somebody is reading this who doesn't know me. Who isn't me. So why do I even write this down anyway? ((doodle)) Because when I read back over the stuff I've written I remember things I otherwise would have forgotten, and I remember how it felt then, and see that sometimes I wrote things that make me smile. So now I'll write some of the stuff that's happened to me lately, so that when I pick this up again and read it months from now, I'll remember. Also, I forget things pretty often, so it's good to write down stuff before it dissapears out of my head.
So, first thing: I took Zekett's talisman to Proudwolf, and he did his thing with the spirits. He wasn't able to give me much more information than I already knew - there's a connection, her spirit is somewhere but he couldn't figure out where. It's frustrating. He told me to ask some of the more experienced shamen... I'm not sure if I'm going to do that or not. I do need to talk to the druids, and ask around in the spirit caves.
I saw a poster in Ratchet about a spirit talker working out of Booty Bay, and went to her. She told me that Zekett was over the ocean - which made sense at the time, but now that I think about it, if Zek was on the Eastern continent, she wouldn't be over the ocean from Booty Bay, would she? Maybe she's on an island up east. Anyway, the spirit talker - she was Forsaken, I didn't know they could do things like this, but I guess some people just have unusual talents - also talked about darkness, and fighting, and danger. Until I find out where Zek is, there's nothing I can do for her, but keep looking and hoping. I hope we can find her soon. I need to go back to that spirit talker and see what else she can tell me. I've left a few messages, but she hasn't been available for another session since then - probably busy talking to other people.
Went to Brewfest with Roshanar, met up with Grub there, fought off those very determined dwarfs. Drank more than I'm used to. Poor Rosh, on the way home he had to stop in the bushes a couple of times. I was fine - well, until the next morning, then I was sick off the edge of Thunder Bluff. Grub was very intense about the idea of Rosh and I getting married. I don't really understand why, other than that he's one of the Earthmother's born meddlers. Or maybe he just wants an excuse for a party. I hadn't known he was married before - and to a Shu'halo! I wonder what happened to his wife...
I haven't talked to Rosh about the marriage thing since then, really, other than a few joking comments. It seems like everybody's thinking about it - Proudwolf is getting married! I don't know. It's not that I don't want to, it's just... it's such a big deal, so public, and there's all the ceremony and everything. And I keep hearing about people getting married, or engaged or whatever, and then they split up again. Like the orc, Bloodaxe. He announced at a Kodo a while back that he was engaged to Briary, a Shu'halo (what is it with other races wanting to hitch up with Shu'halo women?) - he yelled it, pretty much, and they both seemed happy. That was a couple of months ago. But I guess she returned his ring just now, and said it was off. I don't know him well enough to know - I mean, he's pretty stoic and quiet most times. I overheard people trying to cheer him up the other night at the Kodo. Getting engaged - or getting married - isn't a guarantee. And it seems so much worse if you tell everybody you know that you're going to get married, or do go ahead and get married, and then later have to tell everybody you know that you aren't married anymore. Then people try and cheer you up awkwardly. I've had enough of that about Zekett. It's one of the reasons I don't go talking about her to everybody. I don't know what to say, and they don't know what to say, but they feel like they have to try, and it gets all awkward and uncomfortable. I'll have to think about it some more.
I did go hunt up some kodo leather yesterday, though. It was very nice... riding around Mulgore, helping thin down the harpies, picking a few herbs, just hunting kodo casually. Which seems so odd when I think about it like that. I remember when a kodo hunt was - well, you got a dozen people together, it was an event, and you brought along some healers in case somebody was badly injured. But now - I've been staying in practice hunting clefthoof in Nagrand, they're much fiercer and tougher. I send up a signal to the watchers on the Bluff so they can send braves down to gather the meat and bones - I've only been keeping the hides. It's a bit disturbing, how easy it is for me now. Especially in Mulgore, especially with kodo, I do my best to be mindful of every kill I make.
Our things from the hut in Garadar finally arrived a couple of days ago, in crates. It was hard going through everything. I've saved all of Zekett's stuff, even her engineering stuff, unless it seemed unstable or explosive. I'm sure she can make more when I bring her home. I found a pair of goggles she made... I think she made them for me. The straps are definitely made for a Shu'halo head, anyway. I've gotten into the habit of wearing them. It's... a way to remember her they're very useful. I've been working on weaving her talisman into an armband again, and when it's done I'll wear that, too. For now, I'm carrying it around in a pouch.
Last night I met a young druid... I say young, he was about my age, really. Just - never been out of Mulgore. I think it's good to be reminded sometimes of what it's like for the people who stay at home, on the Bluff. Trying to explain about Silvermoon, talking about gnomes and troggs and the Titans... I've seen stuff that makes me believe in the Titans, but I don't know how their story has to do with the Earthmother. I've gotten into the habit of thinking of the Earthmother as an abstract concept, and the druid reminded me of her as a living, physical being - as the spirit and body of the living earth. I can't ever take back the things I've done, the things I've seen, but sometimes I wish I could, and just be a brave in Mulgore, knowing about the Earthmother and the seasons and animals, and not concerned about the Legion or undead or all the other crazy things out there. Some of us have to go out and be the shield, so others can have peaceful lives at home. I think that Roshanar feels the same way, and that's why he talks about when the wars end, and what he'd like to do when he doesn't have to be a warrior anymore. I don't think he believes that the wars will ever really end, any more than I do.
There's appeal in the idea of chucking it all, leaving all the complications aside - putting my armor and weapons in the bank, making my own clothes and tools out of kodo hides and harpy bones, living in Mulgore and letting my whole life be that - patrolling, feeding and protecting the tribe, long slow uneventful days of green hills and solitude.
I'd miss my dragon, though.
Oh, one more thing, a note to myself - some of the senior hunters have been talking about this new technique of training animals that allows them to train creatures that have never been tameable before. I don't know many facts, but I've heard rumours that they've tamed some of the devilsaurs from Un'goro - and even Silithids! It made me think about a story I heard, about a giant two-headed white wolf that lives in a cave on the islands the draenei crashed into. If I can learn this new training method, I'm going to take a trip over there and see if I can find this wolf and bring it home. Or maybe a trip to Un'goro, to tame a devilsaur... that seems like a challenge! I keep pestering the hunter trainers in Thunder Bluff about it, but they say they don't know much more than that. They've promised to send me a letter when more solid news comes through.
Hmm... I think that's everything I wanted to write about, at least for today.