Somehow I laugh on the inside...
It's amazing. It's said that friends come and go, especially after high school, and honestly, it's to be expected. I don't know, I guess I just laugh inspite of myself. I don't know, I guess, friends you have in high school, you somewhat expect them to be around forever. Too bad it never happens that way huh? I mean, I had some of the best friends in high school, friends I wouldn't have given up for the world, but somehow, I guess I did.
I don't know, I guess old times just come flooding back sometimes. You think about the fun randomness... the few things we were absolutely amazing at. I don't know...
I talked to an old friend the other day... I guess that's what made me open my eyes and realize that nothing turns out the way you think it will. We were going to hang out... I guess something came up... but I ended up with my ladies... eating pierogi and doing homework... while watching the nephew eat milk duds and slober everywhere, to in turn draw not only on himself, in his coloring book and on the blanket... but on Kasia as well. Those will be more of the times I know I'll never forget.
I don't know anymore... I always stop and wonder how things ended up the way they are. I mean, I'm not complaining, and yet, I guess I am. I guess I'm just in another one of those things, where I know I need to get away. Just like I was when I applied to go to Germany.. and then got accepted and went as far away as I possibly could. But I know that this time I can't do that. So instead, I'm searching deep inside myself to find out who I am, again, and what I really want out of life.
Anyway... on a less depressing note I guess.. I'm redoing my room... And yes, this is finally with my father's concent. We talked about it for two hours yesterday. I'm going to paint, and redo all my furnature. I'm not sure if I'm keeping my bed or not yet... I guess I'll just have to wait and see. And I'm stoked and decided I'm going to Ikea, even though dad think's its for yuppies who have nothing better to do with their money. But let's be honest here... Ikea is extremely reasonable in pricing, and I absolutely love the store... So... a shopping I will go!
I don't know, I guess old times just come flooding back sometimes. You think about the fun randomness... the few things we were absolutely amazing at. I don't know...
I talked to an old friend the other day... I guess that's what made me open my eyes and realize that nothing turns out the way you think it will. We were going to hang out... I guess something came up... but I ended up with my ladies... eating pierogi and doing homework... while watching the nephew eat milk duds and slober everywhere, to in turn draw not only on himself, in his coloring book and on the blanket... but on Kasia as well. Those will be more of the times I know I'll never forget.
I don't know anymore... I always stop and wonder how things ended up the way they are. I mean, I'm not complaining, and yet, I guess I am. I guess I'm just in another one of those things, where I know I need to get away. Just like I was when I applied to go to Germany.. and then got accepted and went as far away as I possibly could. But I know that this time I can't do that. So instead, I'm searching deep inside myself to find out who I am, again, and what I really want out of life.
Anyway... on a less depressing note I guess.. I'm redoing my room... And yes, this is finally with my father's concent. We talked about it for two hours yesterday. I'm going to paint, and redo all my furnature. I'm not sure if I'm keeping my bed or not yet... I guess I'll just have to wait and see. And I'm stoked and decided I'm going to Ikea, even though dad think's its for yuppies who have nothing better to do with their money. But let's be honest here... Ikea is extremely reasonable in pricing, and I absolutely love the store... So... a shopping I will go!