I was going to do stuff this afternoon, instead I spent six hours introspecting. Now that I've decided to stop, I've realized that the nature and extent of my personal and emotional issues is...different...than I had originally thought. I've been thinking so much that I can barely feel depressed anymore. I'm just confused and frustrated.

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I just put the chicken in some water, found a leftover onion, chopped that and put it in the water, then went through our spice cabinet smelling everything and putting stuff in if it smelled good.

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So I felt like playing with Sibelius today and I decided to start dissecting and reworking the Avatar opening. Idk what I'll do with it but it's fun and it gives me a lot of music feelings. Still don't know how percussion notation works. Or how to tell a key signature. I kind of blindly guess Bb but I keep having to add sharps in. I forget which ( Read more... )

Got out of bed like an hour ago, tried to write, couldn't, watched youtube. Now I ate breakfast and I'm watching Margaret Cho standup and trying to draw but I'm laughing so hard that I...I can't....Can't control self.
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I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Tumblr is out of interesting for the moment. So is reddit. (Miracles both). I played Mass Effect 2 for like three hours, mined a bunch of planets, and tried to help Tali but didn't have enough paragon points to keep her from exiled so I scrapped the save. I will not have her exiled from the fleet. No. No ( Read more... )

I'm in a ditch again. I was so inspired about a week and a half ago. Now....I just want to watch tv all day because it kind of feels like I suck at everything I want to do. 

I don't want to say I'm bored, because I'm really not. It's not like I'm at work or anything at the moment. I'm just trying to do something productive rather than consumptive. In this case productive stuff would be writing, drawing, thinking, stuff like that. Consumptive would be watching, reading, browsing, etc. The internet says consumptive has ( Read more... )

I went home sick from work because my cramps were making me feel like I was about to pass out. Also I didn't want to throw up on anybody. I white-knuckled it all the way to Giant/Stop-n-Shop where I sat in the car for five minutes in the parking lot 1) to get my shit together and 2) because Starlight came on the radio. I went in and bought a huge ( Read more... )

...and snacks so much in the process, that when it's done, she realizes she's not hungry at all....

I used almost an entire jar of tomato sauce and an entire bag of mozzarella cheese in that thing. I'll eat in a few hours and report back.

I came home starving because I forgot to pack my lunch the day before and refused to pay actual cashmoney for the crap they serve in the cafeteria. I am strongly principled about my food. It is one of the only things I feel no regrets for being principled about. If you will not give me tasty food, then you do not deserve any of my money ( Read more... )