birthdays are difficult for me because I invariably and unfailingly think of my mother whose birthday is five days after mine and as an added bonus this year I am thinking of my friend newly lost who has a birthday six days after mine and it is difficult this year, more difficult than the last few and it is sucking so hard I want to just sleep ( Read more... )

I woke on my birthday from a dream of m y uncle, the one who shared my birthday. Not a nightmare as such, but weird enough. There were other dead relatives as well, maybe they were gathered for my day, I dunno. I thought I would call my aunt but my phone was dead so I plugged it in and went off to have lunch with MissH and then in the evening J&H ( Read more... )