Updating
So it's only been five months since my last post? >> Anyways I figured I'd go ahead and update on my life since then. A lot has happened. Im going to go ahead and put a title for each section so you can skip it if you dont want to read about that.
.:Josh:.
Josh and I were really happy for a while. Walking outside my house holding hands, me pulling him close and wrapping my jacket around him. It was really good for a while. But then one day a little over a month ago I think? I got a horrible text message from him. His dad found an old im between us and if he ever saw me again his parents would kick him out of the house. In that instant I lost my best friend and my boyfriend. It hurt a lot and still does. Im doing a bit better now though. I've heard his parents are separating which is horrible in a way and good in another. he hates his father and I can see why. His dad is a horrible person, one of the worst parents i've ever met. But I dunno if we are ever really gonna be close again and that upsets and scares me. I just hope that life calms down for him and starts going at a pace he can handle. My thoughts and prayers go out to him.
.:Friends:.
I hate it but I have very few friends im close to anymore. Ashley and I have moved apart so much I wanna cry sometimes. Im going to try and hang out with her this summer. I think she can do better than Will but she really cares about him so Im gonna give him the benefit of the doubt and say he has something I haven't seen in him. He makes her happy so he cant be all bad. Anyways I want to be closer to her so hopefully this summer we can get together and do some things. Jessica and I might be working together soon, which I'd really like cause I dont see much of her as it is and that's dissappointing. I haven't seen Kim or Omi in forever which I hate and I hope to change as soon as possible. They are both pretty close and such amazing people so making time to hang out with them is a must (making time like im so busy who am I kidding? >>) Robert and I are really close... despite recent issues and I hope we stay that way. As things are im pretty much closer to him than anyone else and Im happy for that at least.
.:Love Life:.
Well despite all that with Josh and the more recent fall out with the chances of Robert and I being together my life life hasn't been completely destroyed. I know of several guys that want to get with me just to jump me and that im not so excited about; but It's a confidence booster I guess? hah But I also know of two really good guys Christian and Bennie and Im wondering if something will happen with one of them. Bennie is so new to things I think i'd break his heart if things didn't work out though so im leaning towards Christian.
.:School:.
Well I didn't do as bad as I thought I would for a while there. As far as I know I got a C in Chemistry which is horrible of me I could have done better if I had taken the time to study. But I did finish with a B in both of my AP Classes so im pretty damn happy about that. ^^ Seeing as how since I took the AP Exams I get the extra weight they carry meaning my B's count as A's in those classes which will help to bump up my GPA which was around 3.4 im hoping it will be over 3.6 next year so I can join the National Honor Society next year because that will look good on my record and all that. Im hoping to finish on a high note. My SAT scores were pretty high but im going to take it again next year because apparently they select the best sections from every test you take and use those... that's a great deal so I might as well try to make use of it. As far as applications im thinking USF, UCF and UF at least... and a few out of state colleges and some that I wanna just see if I can get into. haha
So all and all my life is going okay despite how much I might bitch about it at times. Hopefully I'll get to meet up with Christian this Thursday and I maybe ill even hear about the Job im applying for at Jess's work. So really things are looking up I guess? I need to make some plans with a lot of people and im looking forward to an active and fun summer. ^^
-Graham
.:Josh:.
Josh and I were really happy for a while. Walking outside my house holding hands, me pulling him close and wrapping my jacket around him. It was really good for a while. But then one day a little over a month ago I think? I got a horrible text message from him. His dad found an old im between us and if he ever saw me again his parents would kick him out of the house. In that instant I lost my best friend and my boyfriend. It hurt a lot and still does. Im doing a bit better now though. I've heard his parents are separating which is horrible in a way and good in another. he hates his father and I can see why. His dad is a horrible person, one of the worst parents i've ever met. But I dunno if we are ever really gonna be close again and that upsets and scares me. I just hope that life calms down for him and starts going at a pace he can handle. My thoughts and prayers go out to him.
.:Friends:.
I hate it but I have very few friends im close to anymore. Ashley and I have moved apart so much I wanna cry sometimes. Im going to try and hang out with her this summer. I think she can do better than Will but she really cares about him so Im gonna give him the benefit of the doubt and say he has something I haven't seen in him. He makes her happy so he cant be all bad. Anyways I want to be closer to her so hopefully this summer we can get together and do some things. Jessica and I might be working together soon, which I'd really like cause I dont see much of her as it is and that's dissappointing. I haven't seen Kim or Omi in forever which I hate and I hope to change as soon as possible. They are both pretty close and such amazing people so making time to hang out with them is a must (making time like im so busy who am I kidding? >>) Robert and I are really close... despite recent issues and I hope we stay that way. As things are im pretty much closer to him than anyone else and Im happy for that at least.
.:Love Life:.
Well despite all that with Josh and the more recent fall out with the chances of Robert and I being together my life life hasn't been completely destroyed. I know of several guys that want to get with me just to jump me and that im not so excited about; but It's a confidence booster I guess? hah But I also know of two really good guys Christian and Bennie and Im wondering if something will happen with one of them. Bennie is so new to things I think i'd break his heart if things didn't work out though so im leaning towards Christian.
.:School:.
Well I didn't do as bad as I thought I would for a while there. As far as I know I got a C in Chemistry which is horrible of me I could have done better if I had taken the time to study. But I did finish with a B in both of my AP Classes so im pretty damn happy about that. ^^ Seeing as how since I took the AP Exams I get the extra weight they carry meaning my B's count as A's in those classes which will help to bump up my GPA which was around 3.4 im hoping it will be over 3.6 next year so I can join the National Honor Society next year because that will look good on my record and all that. Im hoping to finish on a high note. My SAT scores were pretty high but im going to take it again next year because apparently they select the best sections from every test you take and use those... that's a great deal so I might as well try to make use of it. As far as applications im thinking USF, UCF and UF at least... and a few out of state colleges and some that I wanna just see if I can get into. haha
So all and all my life is going okay despite how much I might bitch about it at times. Hopefully I'll get to meet up with Christian this Thursday and I maybe ill even hear about the Job im applying for at Jess's work. So really things are looking up I guess? I need to make some plans with a lot of people and im looking forward to an active and fun summer. ^^
-Graham