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So I didn't get the job at Best Buy and they lied to me about only hiring one person because another of the seasonal employees admitted to me before I left that he had been hired and he had been told not to tell anyone. The manager kept stressing to me that I had not been let go because of my performance. I know I did a good job so the only thing I can think of why they decided not to keep me was due to the fact I didn't know any of the employees there like several of the other seasonal people there. Generally I got along with everyone (except for some cashier cunt who I could not stand) but I'm not a type of person who makes rapid friends and I guess that hurt me here.
So there's that little sweetheart.
Second one is that I have been pursuing finding a therapist through my insurance. Unfortunately the four people they gave me they either had the wrong address for or were ridiculously far away in areas of town I am not familiar with. I tried two appointments with different ones and neither one was I able to get to in time due to Mapquest either giving me completely wrong directions or me just not being able to find the building and not being able to get the therapist on the phone in order to find out where they were located. It's been extremely frustrating and with the addition of me not getting the job its only compounded the thought that everything I set out to do I fail at.
I did finally call the insurance and complained to them about giving me doctors that were too far from me and they did provide me with some news one to go to in areas I'm a little more familiar with. So hopefully that will work out.
Thirdly the boyfriend is supposed to come visit in five days and I broke down today after I knocked over the Windex and spilled it everywhere in the midst of trying to clean an entire house in very little time. Remember I can't do anything right, not even clean apparently. I called him up and asked if we could postpone him visiting until next month because I'm too stressed out to deal with entertaining anyone right now on top of everything else and trying to clean this place in five days with no help is just not something I feel up to doing at this point. Anyway it led to a fairly less than satisfying conversation with him upset and me feeling shitty because I'm failing at everything.
Fourthly, my mother called in the middle of me vacuuming (I spent literally three hours cleaning today) so I didn't pick up and she left me a very simple voicemail of "Screw you." Thanks for that little sweetheart, mother. You're a very great support.
Yknow I see so many people on LJ that talk about their parents, especially their mothers, being their best friends. Instead of getting that I have one parent I see maybe one month out of the year who still acts like he's a teenager gallivanting around the country in a fucking trailer still trying to find themselves and one parent who leaves me voicemails saying "Screw you" when I don't pick up the phone.
I really hate the human species.