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so it turns out boy is worried. like really worried. god i don't wanna hurt him. i just never considered him the type to worry. a big part of that is the fact that i don't know him very well. now that seems unexpected, but seriously he is an enigma. and he chooses to be that way, chooses to not let anyone in, so i don't feel badly for not understanding. but he told me straight up that he's worried bc he doesn't see an end in sight. i don't know what i want my caloric intake to be at the end of this, but i doubt it'll ever get up to 2200 like he wants it. eventually i'll get over 1000 but not yet. not until i get to my goal weight. then i'll gradually add back in so my slowed metabolism doesn't make me gain tons of weight. see, it makes perfect sense!
i do love how he is when he's showing how much he cares, tho. he was the one that said we should lay down and snuggle, for the first time. and he was rubbing my back and playing with my hair and holding me while we slept. i'm gonna miss that this summer.
sidenote, my ankle is still swollen. no running for me ;( it also means i have to go to student health and get it checked out. boo
and i still haven't gotten my period. bigger boo
i do love how he is when he's showing how much he cares, tho. he was the one that said we should lay down and snuggle, for the first time. and he was rubbing my back and playing with my hair and holding me while we slept. i'm gonna miss that this summer.
sidenote, my ankle is still swollen. no running for me ;( it also means i have to go to student health and get it checked out. boo
and i still haven't gotten my period. bigger boo