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i haven't gotten my period. i'm terrified that i'm pregnant and unknowingly hurting the baby by not eating. god i'm paranoid.
boy confuses me so much. he's just so fuckin crazy sometimes, and will get mad for no reason and i don't really get why. then he'll suddenly be fine and then he'll be comforting and i dunno he's just so hard to understand. he's been stressed lately and i know that's why but i've been stressed too and i'm going nuts.
i also found out its impossible for me to get an A- in chem lab, when i expected to easily get an A. i'm so pissed at myself for fucking up this entire semester. my grades have gone to shit and it's my own damn fault. wtf was i thinking?! god i'm so fucking pathetic.
so i fucked up my ankle this morning and couldn't run. oh, and boy found out how much i'm eating and keeps randomly lecturing. i think he's pissed or something. who knows.
anyway, i'm not gonna be able to run tomorrow bc my ankle is perhaps sprained and it hurts like hell. hopefully i'll be good to run 7 miles on sunday.
so back to food:
3 balance bars (300)
salad (46)
-346 total
not too bad. maybe i'll just have salads tomorrow and get it below 100.
boy confuses me so much. he's just so fuckin crazy sometimes, and will get mad for no reason and i don't really get why. then he'll suddenly be fine and then he'll be comforting and i dunno he's just so hard to understand. he's been stressed lately and i know that's why but i've been stressed too and i'm going nuts.
i also found out its impossible for me to get an A- in chem lab, when i expected to easily get an A. i'm so pissed at myself for fucking up this entire semester. my grades have gone to shit and it's my own damn fault. wtf was i thinking?! god i'm so fucking pathetic.
so i fucked up my ankle this morning and couldn't run. oh, and boy found out how much i'm eating and keeps randomly lecturing. i think he's pissed or something. who knows.
anyway, i'm not gonna be able to run tomorrow bc my ankle is perhaps sprained and it hurts like hell. hopefully i'll be good to run 7 miles on sunday.
so back to food:
3 balance bars (300)
salad (46)
-346 total
not too bad. maybe i'll just have salads tomorrow and get it below 100.