wow i can't believe im writing in this
Where to start? God. Life. Friends. Women. DRAMA! I hate TNT because they say that they "know DRAMA." Well fuck you TNT! I had a front row seat of it all this summer that seemed to grab me at times too. I really hate Drama. It sucks. It's what girls do, and most of my friends are guys. Maybe they're all gay? Who knows. All I know is that I know who my real friends are. I'm not going to take the time to write out the shit that's happened this summer but I will pick up right here in the present. And Alas the present includes the only 2 people that might actually read this. But hell this is a journal, and these are my feelings, so i really don't think im gonna offend anyone. Anyway, Scott broke up with Stacey. WOW. Something that I thought would never happen. Stacey probably thought the same way I did from the way things were going. Now don't get me wrong Scott did have reasons for fucking this up, and they are understandable. But they aren't good ones, in my opinion. I mean God-dammit if you like someone practice some simple self control, and TOLERATION. Anyway that's water under the bridge. And yes Scott I was VERY pissed off at you for a couple of days, but I got over it. Just like you'll get over being pissed of at me for writing this in my livejournal, haha. Scott and Stacey are two very cool people, I like em' alot. I miss them both right now too.
I am glad that I got to go to Texas though. I was a little unsure about it at first. I mean I knew I'd have a great time with Stephen, we've been friends for over 12 years now, VERY awesome guy. And I'm so glad he's got himself a really cool girlfriend, kudos to Steve. I'm proud of that guy. Back to why I was unsure. Laurie. I wasn't sure how Laurie would take me until 3 nights before I left I got a great e-mail from her, and I found out that I was being a REAL asshole, so i called her and we talked for a long while. it was nice. And things were very cool betweem the three of us when I got here. Just for those who don't know we used to hang out ALL the time, the three of us, we were best friends for like 4 years until I moved. We still remained friends and everything, we just couldn't hang out cause I lived 800 miles away. Which sucked by the way. Anyway the other reason why I thought things might be awkward was with Joy. Yeah it was a little awkward. I mean I didn't expect her to hang out with me as much as Stephen and Laurie because of our recent history but damn, she seemed like she didn't really want to at all. Which I can still see why she acted like she did. Things went ok though, I got to take Steve and his girlfriend, and Joy out to the Saltgrass. It was awkward but fun at times. I think I have a fucking ulcer now (not because of the food), but it was nice. Sarcasm is fun. Anyway, she told me after we dropped her off at her house that if we wanted any seafood then to come see her at work. Which in translation means, LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. So I will. Back to Laurie. 2 years ago we had a thing for each other, and I really liked her, I really don't know what happened except that I live 800 miles away, it didn't last, whatever it was, very long. Now I see her with her boyfriend of over a year. And I actually feel my temperature rise. She's a very cool girl. A lot like Stacey and Jo. Actually those three girls are the coolest girls I know, and all very good friends too. Anyway, wow, Jealousy, it's a bitch. Yeah, me, I was pretty damn jealous tonight, but I cover well, haha. It actually tore me up inside and I had a little pitty party for myself about an hour ago, I'm done with that though. So bottom line is, that guy is a lucky fuck. Anyway, that's about it for now, I'll probably have this much to say tomorrow night too, so have fun at work Scott, and I hope you enjoyed reading my first entry Stacey.