can you still feel the butterflies?
everything is shit now, i dont even know about torin anymore, i cant tell if he still likes me or if i just take things too personally. lately i feel like hes being mean to me and i told him and he said hes always liek that? i dont know. he talks like its the worst thing ever to drive 30 mins to come and see me and he always tells me to come there...uhh...ok? HOW MOTHER FUCKER?! ahhh! he invited me to have thanksgiving dinner with his dad on wednesaday since his parents are separated theyre having 2 thanksgivings and then he asked me to sleep over after. i asked my dad about the first part but im scared about the second..my dad is being real scetch about the whole me and torin relationship. i dont want torin to break up with me but ive been fearing it soo much lately, ever since we got in our first fight i feel like he cant deal with fights since im his first girlfriend and hell dump me over anything little. i thnk he likes this girls ashleigh too but the thing is i hang out with tons of guys and i wonder if he thinks i like them? god im just having a shitty past 2 weeks and i havent seen him in forever and i miss him soo much, i just want to kiss him and i want him to hold me and touch me and then everythign will be ok but until then everything sucks. i hope he comes over tomorrow.