i am so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!
s yea, i guess i should just admit it to everyone: i have a crush on him. i really do. i hate myself for liking ppl so easily. urg!! yupup. this weekend was pretty tight. toga party rocked. i saw folk i hadnt seen in forever. it was a good night all the way around. i guess you can say it was orgasmic. (the pun was totally intended). i am so ashamed of myself for liking him, not that hes bad, b/c hes great. its just i promised myself i wouldnt allow myself to see him as a person. i should have learned from the last time i tried to be an ice queen. i ended up feeling used and like a big steaming piece of shit. so of course, b/c im erica, i do exactly what i shouldnt do. i hate me so much. i am so self destructive. whatever. mabye he'll like me back. i am going t try to quell my inner pessimist and attempt to see the metaphorical glass as half full.i might not be heading for heartbreak. heres hoping...... everyone cross your fingers.
peas...
peas...