bored outta my fucking mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
so yes i am so bored. no call from HIM yet. i guess my bubble of feelings has sprung a leak and will soon be a scene that will put the Hindenberg to shame. i am about to burst in2 flames. i think the worst feeling in the world is boredom b/c it always lead to worse thoughts about yourself...i.e: i have no friends,iam ugly, i am not good enough for HIM to call me. .... i am not gonna go on a self depracating parade so i will stop my self loathe mode now.....i hate myself. there im done i swear.
yea, alex is selling me out for american idol.i am gonna bomb the finale episode of that show just to spite alex. i am not vindictive. i swear. blah blah blah....i really have nothing to do. evn music is pissing me off. arg! i wish i had a car. i wouldnt go anywhere in particular. i would probably just circle the block a few times but i would circle the block asthough i have a purpose. not very many ppl can say they have a purpose. my purpose is to..... idk. i guess the jury is out on what my purpose is. speaking of juries.. i have to give a speech next thursday the 27 of march. if anyone wants to come they are invited. its free. its at sunset (the school)at 7:30. please someone come to cheer me on. i could use the support.
yea, alex is selling me out for american idol.i am gonna bomb the finale episode of that show just to spite alex. i am not vindictive. i swear. blah blah blah....i really have nothing to do. evn music is pissing me off. arg! i wish i had a car. i wouldnt go anywhere in particular. i would probably just circle the block a few times but i would circle the block asthough i have a purpose. not very many ppl can say they have a purpose. my purpose is to..... idk. i guess the jury is out on what my purpose is. speaking of juries.. i have to give a speech next thursday the 27 of march. if anyone wants to come they are invited. its free. its at sunset (the school)at 7:30. please someone come to cheer me on. i could use the support.