Frustration
So, I haven't been to my counselor in a few months because of sickness and what not, and I'm getting really, really frustrated with the family situation. My mum seems to want to admit that I'm male, and refuses to call me by my chosen name. Spencer was a long time nickname of mine, and was sort of dubbed by some friends, but I've thought a lot about my name, and what feels right, and I've chosen Shaemus. So she won't use he, him, or Shaemus, and it's really disrespectful to me.
I also broke up with my boyfriend of nine months, who knew I was trans, and have started dating another (hetero) guy who doesn't know, he just knows I'm very androgynous. So, it's almost as if she's seen this as a "change of heart and mind," and acts like I'm no longer trans.
I was also going to tell my father, but I freaked out at the last minute and decided not to. So, yeah. And my sister doesn't know either. All in all, I'm just really upset with the way the whole situation is going, seeing as my mum is lesbian, because you'd think she'd be a little more . . . understanding.
I'm also looking for any good trans reading material, so, any suggestions?
I'll update later after therapy, maybe. Things usually get slightly better after them.
I also broke up with my boyfriend of nine months, who knew I was trans, and have started dating another (hetero) guy who doesn't know, he just knows I'm very androgynous. So, it's almost as if she's seen this as a "change of heart and mind," and acts like I'm no longer trans.
I was also going to tell my father, but I freaked out at the last minute and decided not to. So, yeah. And my sister doesn't know either. All in all, I'm just really upset with the way the whole situation is going, seeing as my mum is lesbian, because you'd think she'd be a little more . . . understanding.
I'm also looking for any good trans reading material, so, any suggestions?
I'll update later after therapy, maybe. Things usually get slightly better after them.