Day Zero
Well, here it is. It's my due date. I know it's been a long time since everything happened... but 13 weeks is plenty of time to fall in love. Half a year, evidently, isn't long enough to forget that love. It's really hard to think I should have a little one in my arms this week.
I am doing okay. I had a sort of hard time at Thanksgiving.So many babies.Some just weeks old. Several pregnant women... my sister in law.
It's just hard. I was totally fine all day until we left. I cried in the car. I don't know. I was just sad.
I'm very thankful for my nieces.
They love me so much and they're just so sweet. I love them to pieces.
I'm sad I don't get to meet my baby this week. Or ever. Maybe some day I'll get this right.
Putting one foot forward, I'm anxious to get a Christmas tree and decorate for Christmas. I've started a little bit. I have also started shopping a bit. Traditionally, Brian and I don't buy each other gifts. But last year, he was Mr. Mysterious and bought me those damn rims I wanted for my bike. I was so surprised and happy that I, famously, burst into tears upon opening them. That boy...
Those bike rims to me were like diamond ear rings would be to most girls lol
Anyhow, I had some extra money this year and decided to get him a few small things. I got him a vintage style cylinder seat bag, a digital tire gauge, a messenger bag and a nice dress shirt from Old Navy. The messenger bag sort of fell into my lap. I was looking at bike messenger style bags online and he saw me looking at them. He told me he didn't want me to spend that kind of money on him. They're very expensive.I said I wouldn't if he didn't want me to. Well, I was thrifting yesterday and found a small, fairly nice, great condition one for $2! It's not a super fancy Chrome bag or anything, but it's a solid bag that he can toss his u-lock and a pair of shoes and a snack in.
Hopefully I can start my December baking next week! Can't wait to make gingerbread, pies, cakes, cookies, peanut brittle etc etc!!!
I am doing okay. I had a sort of hard time at Thanksgiving.So many babies.Some just weeks old. Several pregnant women... my sister in law.
It's just hard. I was totally fine all day until we left. I cried in the car. I don't know. I was just sad.
I'm very thankful for my nieces.
They love me so much and they're just so sweet. I love them to pieces.
I'm sad I don't get to meet my baby this week. Or ever. Maybe some day I'll get this right.
Putting one foot forward, I'm anxious to get a Christmas tree and decorate for Christmas. I've started a little bit. I have also started shopping a bit. Traditionally, Brian and I don't buy each other gifts. But last year, he was Mr. Mysterious and bought me those damn rims I wanted for my bike. I was so surprised and happy that I, famously, burst into tears upon opening them. That boy...
Those bike rims to me were like diamond ear rings would be to most girls lol
Anyhow, I had some extra money this year and decided to get him a few small things. I got him a vintage style cylinder seat bag, a digital tire gauge, a messenger bag and a nice dress shirt from Old Navy. The messenger bag sort of fell into my lap. I was looking at bike messenger style bags online and he saw me looking at them. He told me he didn't want me to spend that kind of money on him. They're very expensive.I said I wouldn't if he didn't want me to. Well, I was thrifting yesterday and found a small, fairly nice, great condition one for $2! It's not a super fancy Chrome bag or anything, but it's a solid bag that he can toss his u-lock and a pair of shoes and a snack in.
Hopefully I can start my December baking next week! Can't wait to make gingerbread, pies, cakes, cookies, peanut brittle etc etc!!!