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I'm trying really hard to not be negative about having to work at the bar tonight. I really am. Everyime I start getting upset about it, I tell myself to shut up and be glad that I have two jobs when some people have none.
I don't hate working there. I don't even mind the work, though it can be stressful. It has become exponentially more easy with each week that passes. And I'm very good at what I do.
The point is, if I didn't need this job to fund my cake making, I would quit. Really, I would. Eventually, I guess the goal is for the cake making to fund itself. But im not there yet. At all.
The other thing is, I feel like a huuuge baby, because it's only one night a week, but ugh... I leave work here and go right there. Its just such a long day. I miss my pup and my kitten. I want to give them the snuggles.
I can't wait until Hell City... but who knows how much money I will have. I doubt it will be as much as I'd like, but whatever. I can't wait to just see Liz and laugh until we cry and have a good ol' time.
I just want time. I'm tired of the same thing everyday.
in Duff's Food Network Story, he said "one day I woke up and realized... I don't have a job... I need to sell some cakes."
And look where he is now.
Brian got fired from his stupid ass job in 2006 and he's made a living recording bands ever since.
I just can't do this retail BS forever. It's not me, but its what I know how to do and I'm good at it. I know that's not saying much, but I've been in retail since I was like 18 so... I don't know. I know the only way out is with a skill. I hope my cakes can be that out.
It's all I talk about anymore. But it's all I think about.
We all know I go through phases, but I think I have too much invested in this to stop or get discouraged. I'd hate myself forever.
One of my big goals is to audition for a food network challenge within two years. Might sound kind of silly, but food network is a huge part of my life.
Ps I think I have an ear infection. Its very painful and im pretty upset about it.
I don't hate working there. I don't even mind the work, though it can be stressful. It has become exponentially more easy with each week that passes. And I'm very good at what I do.
The point is, if I didn't need this job to fund my cake making, I would quit. Really, I would. Eventually, I guess the goal is for the cake making to fund itself. But im not there yet. At all.
The other thing is, I feel like a huuuge baby, because it's only one night a week, but ugh... I leave work here and go right there. Its just such a long day. I miss my pup and my kitten. I want to give them the snuggles.
I can't wait until Hell City... but who knows how much money I will have. I doubt it will be as much as I'd like, but whatever. I can't wait to just see Liz and laugh until we cry and have a good ol' time.
I just want time. I'm tired of the same thing everyday.
in Duff's Food Network Story, he said "one day I woke up and realized... I don't have a job... I need to sell some cakes."
And look where he is now.
Brian got fired from his stupid ass job in 2006 and he's made a living recording bands ever since.
I just can't do this retail BS forever. It's not me, but its what I know how to do and I'm good at it. I know that's not saying much, but I've been in retail since I was like 18 so... I don't know. I know the only way out is with a skill. I hope my cakes can be that out.
It's all I talk about anymore. But it's all I think about.
We all know I go through phases, but I think I have too much invested in this to stop or get discouraged. I'd hate myself forever.
One of my big goals is to audition for a food network challenge within two years. Might sound kind of silly, but food network is a huge part of my life.
Ps I think I have an ear infection. Its very painful and im pretty upset about it.