Tonight a beautiful moon has appeared...

[gekka_no_neko]

This is a translation of Gackt's first diary entry for 2004.  This one made me cry.

EDIT: I forgot to put up the rules. I know you guys know the rules, but here they are again.

1. Do not take any of these translations, even for yourself, without my permission.  Even if you ask for my permission, I don't know if I can give it.  The worst that could

Comments

[gakuto_chan]

I read that entry some times ago, and it really made me cry. It shows how much Gackt cares about each and every one of his close friends, and how much he treasures each moment. At the same time, it shows how strong he is, and even after death, thinks for the person whom has passed away. The true strength in a person is one like him, where reflection and persistence is mixed among a tender sorrow. Someone who will always go on, striving to be a better person than yesterday. He has been continually stepping upwards, and as he wrote in "Lapis", "Honno sukoshi dake tsuyoku naru tame ni mizukara wo kizuketeita," through hurtful times such as these, he embraces the pain instead of running away from it. He looks for the support of others instead of letting himself carry all the pain. In this way, each and everytime he becomes a stronger person.

It's an amazing thing when one person can share this kind of change in feelings to others. A pain that brings out the gentleness in people. I sincerely believe in that, because when I think of all my friends, I become someone more gentle than yesterday. When I think of Gackt, I feel the courage to go on living my tomorrow. When I think of all the people I've met along the way, whether good or bad, I become someone better than yesterday and strive for a more beautiful tomorrow. So, in a way, I understand what he feels, yet I doubt I could be as strong as him. The thought of anyone close to me dying is too painful for me to carry, and I constantly worry about that. I know I will be devastated, but I wonder if I could be as strong as him. If I could smile for the person and believe in my heart that they have reached a far better place, and they aren't struggling in the living anymore.

Perhaps when the time comes, I would be able to, but for now, I have not an inkling. Though through Gackt, I have gained a little insight on the beauty and pain surrounding life and death, and I truly thank him for that. He makes my life a little richer and fuller, knowing that this is someone who has experienced it, and has written it down for all his fans to understand. Moreover, has written it down because he believes he needs the moral support, which makes him stronger. To turn to people for support in need is someone I see as having strength because it shows that trust between him and all the people he turns to.

Reading upon this, I reflect back over my fandom and how much it has grown. It reminds me that I should write another essay expressing the love for him and the love he has for all his fans since I've learnt a whole lot more since the last essay I've written.

This is probably getting way too long, but I do stand by what you've said, and have been all this time. To continue the support for him in everything he does, from this time to the next. For always and forever. In living, in death, in time, in dimension and in depth. Through the hard times and the good times, through every minute and second. An eternal process.

[gekka_no_neko]

The true strength in a person is one like him, where reflection and persistence is mixed among a tender sorrow. Someone who will always go on, striving to be a better person than yesterday.

What you have said here is exactly how I have always thought of Gackt. He has this enormous capacity to take in and feel the emotions of others, while at the same time he has this strength of will that he can send out to others. I have always found that to be astonishing, and I truly believe that he has reached the potential in man, and is even reaching beyond it. Before finding Gackt, I did not have much faith in people; after finding him, I have complete faith in Gackt, and growing faith in the people who strive to live the way he lives.

The thought of anyone close to me dying is too painful for me to carry, and I constantly worry about that. I know I will be devastated, but I wonder if I could be as strong as him.

I've been lucky in that I haven't lost anyone close to me. I also have this fear that I won't be able to be as strong as him when that time comes to pass. But, I know that when that time comes, these words that Gackt has written will come rushing back to me, and I will be able to do what is necesary; to remember the one who has passed and to carry on.

It reminds me that I should write another essay expressing the love for him and the love he has for all his fans since I've learnt a whole lot more since the last essay I've written.

I would absolutely love to read such an essay! Unless it's too personal, of course. ^_^

I wish there was more I could do for him, more I could do in return for all he has given me. If there is nothing else I can do, then I will just continue to support him to the ends of time and beyond...

Thank you for your beautiful comments.