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hey i havint wrote in awile cuZ i just havint had time...........the red soX are going to the show isint that awsome yaya i was out last niight till 430 cuZ i got locked out and wellso i jsut stayed out wit people and had a party (o was it fun) 2day went by alriight exempt i got into a nother fight with my mama dukes cuZ she was being anoyying like always so i fliped out on her w/e its nothing new i hate her and dats dat........i am going camping on the charls friday with my dad i am so happyy i cant wait to spend time with him.....and bret is comming home to visit dis weekend and i am going to see him saterday but i am all confussed because lyk 5days ago and tells me he has a girl friend that he meet at military school and well no he is telling me he misses me and wants to get back with me and idk if i wanna get hurt all ova from him because he is never goin to be here and well he is going to the military after he gets his G.E.D. so irealy dont no wa i am going to say i miss him in all but i dunt think things will work out i realy HATE bois they stink well the ones i start likeing........but w.e its all good its just a boi riiiight ders more in the sea but i guess not for me um going craZy i havint had a boi since the end of summa some people say its couse i am ugly (in which i belive)and others say its cuZ um an idiot and no one wants anything to do with me (thats true too) but w.e i guess its ok to have self hate at times i mean come on now i hated my self proply from when i was born i fucked up my parents reationship so bad expacely now everything i doo they yell about like when i come home drunk or suttin be w/e its my life no one can tell me how to live it riiight i gadda make choices on my own....even if der bad ones....well i am going to cut it of here because i gadda go to my darn homework that i could careless about but cant get detion 2morra cuZ my dad is picking me up to go camping at lyk 4 so yuh well i am out lattaaZz.......
P.s. my nose operation is in less then 2weeks does anyone wanna take it for me PLEASEEEEE........ill do nething.....i cant eat nething on helloween NO CANDY and i cant have any alcohole umm ganna go insane befor den i am so scared its ganna hurt and ill be in pain for a week please someone due it for me i rather die den go in the the hospital i hate dem so bed and i gadda sleep der too ahhhhh
what the fuge why did dis have to happen to me i am so destroyed and not no wat to do with my life i cant do soccer and i cant to swim a year wit out swim as drivin me more down the drain then i reliZed it could i realy wanna do swim it gets me so sad to think it was my last year on boy and gurls club swim team and i been on it since i was 6 and no that i cant do it dis year it was suposta be my final year so i could get a scoler ship from it but now i cant it makes me so so so sadd lyk i cant even explain this year was my most important year eva and no its all gone out the window.......
i cant even do a sport next season eathaa oman a whole year with out sports having all dis free time is craZy it make me more of a drinker cuZ i proply drink lyk every day after school cuZ i got nuttin better to do
P.s. my nose operation is in less then 2weeks does anyone wanna take it for me PLEASEEEEE........ill do nething.....i cant eat nething on helloween NO CANDY and i cant have any alcohole umm ganna go insane befor den i am so scared its ganna hurt and ill be in pain for a week please someone due it for me i rather die den go in the the hospital i hate dem so bed and i gadda sleep der too ahhhhh
what the fuge why did dis have to happen to me i am so destroyed and not no wat to do with my life i cant do soccer and i cant to swim a year wit out swim as drivin me more down the drain then i reliZed it could i realy wanna do swim it gets me so sad to think it was my last year on boy and gurls club swim team and i been on it since i was 6 and no that i cant do it dis year it was suposta be my final year so i could get a scoler ship from it but now i cant it makes me so so so sadd lyk i cant even explain this year was my most important year eva and no its all gone out the window.......
i cant even do a sport next season eathaa oman a whole year with out sports having all dis free time is craZy it make me more of a drinker cuZ i proply drink lyk every day after school cuZ i got nuttin better to do