out of the yellow/blue/red memory:::
i was sitting at the bus stop and just studying, and there was a girl sitting next to me about my age and she was studying too. she was reading a book about islamic design & patterns, and i was reading a book about early ballet startings. i kept looking at her through my peripheral vision, you know how you can see through tunnels on the sides of your eyes? and i just thought that she looked like someone a cute girl that i could get along with. her bus came, and she hurried and gathered all her stuff all around her and ran to jump in the long line into/onto it. she left her book on the bench, right next to me, almost it seemed like she left it on purpose to see what i would do. she was in line and she was looking straight ahead at the road and i was looking straight ahead at the bus, and then down at the book and back up at her, and at the book and at her etcetera a few times. i didn't touch the book. she got on the bus and i still had time to run and give her her book back, there were still more people in line. i still didn't touch it. the bus left and her book stayed by my side. i stared at it. i imagined opening it and finding a note with a secret code for a secret mission on it. or a nice note to me. maybe she was someone in someone else's body and it was a test to see what i would do. maybe it was her in her own body and it was a test to see what i would do. i moved to another bench and pretended like i had never seen it, and i hoped that someone else would take this burden from me and resolve this issue. the book never moved, and noone dared sit on the bench that it was left on. my bus wasn't due to come for another twenty minutes, and i kept looking at it through my tunnels and finally a guy with a mustache came over. he was talking on the phone and he grabbed the book like it was a lost book that some girl left behind and laughed on his phone and walked away. i watched him walk all down the street until he went out of vision, and then my bus came and i hopped on board and decided not to let something like that happen again ever.