A.D.D.
My attention span is too short. Why is that? I can be so focused on one thing in my life and then I can't seem to focus on that thing the next week. It makes me sad because it ruins things for me... In all respects to that which surrounds me why is it that I can retain incredibly long lived relationships with people that annoy the hell out of me at times, but when I get into deeper relationships I tend to lose interest after a few months. Maybe it's just a thing I sink into, maybe I'm just doomed. I'm not saying that my current relationship is doomed, but I'm not sure about it either. I just wish I was able to talk more about my thoughts on the whole situation. It makes me distressed, depressed, and rather lonely when I think about it. Maybe I am doomed to be the live in mother of a gay couples child. Maybe I am to be the lonesome workaholic woman who goes home to be with her pets, only to live forever without someone to actually call their own. It makes me sad to think about. I don't want to be that person. Why do I lose interest so easily, when I'm trying so hard to remain interested? T.T