My random brain
Finally this torturous week is complete, I have finished over 70 hours of constant go and less than 20 hours of sleep. It's so nice to be able to sit now and do nothing for a little while. There are times now days where I wonder, what am I doing with my life. I'm stuck in two deadend jobs, I would rather sit at home doing my homework. There are times that I wish I hadn't moved out of my parent's house and stayed full time in school, I think I would be done with things by now. I think at the least I would have a license and be able to leave when I want. However, I look at the way life is, and I know that I would never have the freedom I have now. I probably still would have never been in any relationships, because I really feel uncomfortable bringing people to visit my parents. I think the biggest thing is that I really feel uncomfortable with the constant pressure I would have had to go to church. I don't want to go to their church, I haven't had the push to attend that church, nor have I had any real push to go to any. I haven't a clue when I felt this way, I remember a few years back it was impossible to get me to skip going to church on Sundays and Wednesdays... Now you have to drag me there. It's not that I have anything against Christianity, or against Christ and God, I just don't have the same eyes that I had before. I look at the whole of any belief now days, these religions that we fight for saying that what we believe is the one and only truth. There is nothing that is 100% true in this world, no one can say that there is anything in this universe that is 100% certain. The only thing in the universe that is 100% right is the universe itself, no one can prove it wrong and no one can go against it. I cannot say that there is or isn't a god, there is no 100% proof, I cannot say that there is an ultimate truth to any belief or religion, again there is no 100% truth. I can see the differences in things and I can also see the similarities. All religions have the same truth to them, the promise of an ultimate afterlife. We as humans have created our myths to support the things that we don't fully understand. In this creation we have made ourself these gods and myths that we follow to better ourselves and to hope for that further existence. The preserving of one's immortality is a viable reality through spreading our seed, as instinct would have it, but so is the thought and belief of living well so that we may enter into the afterlife and live for all eternity. I don't know why I'm like this, but I am, to be forever in the search for knowledge and truth.
"The one that acknowledges and understands that they truely know nothing is the one that is truely wise."
"The one that acknowledges and understands that they truely know nothing is the one that is truely wise."