a realization
Heres whats going on in my life right now:
The worst thing is that my dad has cancer. Dispite this, we (me and my Dad) arent worried overly much. Yes were worried about whats going to happen, but after going through this once before with my mom, we realize we are either going to beat this, or the inevitable is going to happen. Sure were worried, who wouldnt be, but at this time, we really arent overly worried. We know we will be all right, and we are ready to face whatever happens. Its odd to actually not to be a nervous wreck over this, but we are taking it as it comes, not freaking out. This may change later down the line, ill keep you posted on it.
Shifting topic:
I scrap to make ends meet, but i survive. Usually im worried sick about how my money is holding up...but im not now. Go figure.
I have no girlfreind, and im working a job that may or may not lead to anything. I sit in a cubicle, help with tech problems, go home, goof off, sleep and repeat. Nothing exciting, nothing rocking your world omg wtf, just a calm quiet existance.
And I am content right now.
Sure I want my life to be all cool and awesomeness, with a girlfreind and all that gloried shit...but i know thats outside my means, and i accept that.
I have never been this calm..what the fuck is wrong with me?
The worst thing is that my dad has cancer. Dispite this, we (me and my Dad) arent worried overly much. Yes were worried about whats going to happen, but after going through this once before with my mom, we realize we are either going to beat this, or the inevitable is going to happen. Sure were worried, who wouldnt be, but at this time, we really arent overly worried. We know we will be all right, and we are ready to face whatever happens. Its odd to actually not to be a nervous wreck over this, but we are taking it as it comes, not freaking out. This may change later down the line, ill keep you posted on it.
Shifting topic:
I scrap to make ends meet, but i survive. Usually im worried sick about how my money is holding up...but im not now. Go figure.
I have no girlfreind, and im working a job that may or may not lead to anything. I sit in a cubicle, help with tech problems, go home, goof off, sleep and repeat. Nothing exciting, nothing rocking your world omg wtf, just a calm quiet existance.
And I am content right now.
Sure I want my life to be all cool and awesomeness, with a girlfreind and all that gloried shit...but i know thats outside my means, and i accept that.
I have never been this calm..what the fuck is wrong with me?