Summer Start
So it's been about two weeks since I last posted. On the one hand, it was a nice break and I'm glad to recharge my batteries, so to speak. But I'm also a writer and that means when I'm not writing I tend to go a little crazy. I kept things going by writing in my journal while at work and that gave me the outlet I needed but now I'm back online and ready to dish about what's been happening.
In activist news, we've got all of OUT's events planned for next semester and just have a little tweaking to do over the summer. We'll be hosting movie nights, discussion boards, passing out condoms with new themes for each month, including AIDS Awareness, Transgender Rights, Pride and Coming Out. We're showing some of my favorite movies and I get to really flex my writing muscles with the newsletter when we get into full swing. I'm pretty motivated!
At Youth First Texas I'll be hosting the next couple Gender Identity Nights with my friend Shawn. I'll also have the joy of helping a couple girls start their transitions later this month. It's pretty moving for me. Just a few years ago I was depressed and convinced my life would be a miserable facade. Now I'm not only happy and living with my truth but helping others find their way through the fog. I've come around full-circle and can give back to the world that helped me. Words can't describe how grateful I am.
I love my boyfriend. A lot. I'm not one to throw the "L Word" out there lightly, but it's true. No matter what comes up we can always talk without any awkward feelings or mistrust. I've shared things with him I never thought would be possible and in some ways I've never been closer with another person. The more we get to know each other the deeper that feeling grows. I've been able to trust him unconditionally, not only with my past and body but my fears and hopes for the future. When we first started dating I couldn't believe I was worthy of such happiness in my life, but I've come to accept we're both just as beneficial for the other and I am worth it. I thought I had confidence before, but now I feel invincible.
My new house is awesome but has come with some landlord drama issues. We're still ironing a few things out with the utilities but Jess is easily the best roommate I've had. Our schedules are nearly perfect opposites so we don't see too much of each other but we fix things by communicating, what a concept. Our housewarming party was amazing, with about 20 people showing up for food and booze we managed to stuff everyone to the gills and let them leave happy.
My job, on the other hand, is not that great. My boss and I have never seen eye to eye on most political issues but while I'm willing to let it go he's constantly bringing it up so he can tell me why he's right and I'm an idiot. It wouldn't bother me except I spend about 14 hours with the guy on a given work day when you include the drive to and from Cooper. The pay is pretty crappy too because these country folks still don't understand that tipping starts at 15 percent. It's not "throw a couple bucks on the counter for a table of 6". I've haven't decided completely yet, but I think I might start looking for another waitress job. As much as I wish I could help Elias and his family start the new restaurant it's just too much stress for not enough money. Simple as that.
I also just found out an hour ago that my best friend is moving back to Dallas to live with her aunt. This is so amazing I can't even think coherently about it but I'm totally calling her tonight because we need to catch up on so much anyway. I also just found out I got a 4.0 for the semester, despite getting a B in Algebra. Don't ask me, I'm not going to complain! That just about sums everything up. Until I get internet access in my house I won't be able to update daily like I used to, but I'll do my best to keep it weekly at least. Love you guys, hope your Summer is going well!
In activist news, we've got all of OUT's events planned for next semester and just have a little tweaking to do over the summer. We'll be hosting movie nights, discussion boards, passing out condoms with new themes for each month, including AIDS Awareness, Transgender Rights, Pride and Coming Out. We're showing some of my favorite movies and I get to really flex my writing muscles with the newsletter when we get into full swing. I'm pretty motivated!
At Youth First Texas I'll be hosting the next couple Gender Identity Nights with my friend Shawn. I'll also have the joy of helping a couple girls start their transitions later this month. It's pretty moving for me. Just a few years ago I was depressed and convinced my life would be a miserable facade. Now I'm not only happy and living with my truth but helping others find their way through the fog. I've come around full-circle and can give back to the world that helped me. Words can't describe how grateful I am.
I love my boyfriend. A lot. I'm not one to throw the "L Word" out there lightly, but it's true. No matter what comes up we can always talk without any awkward feelings or mistrust. I've shared things with him I never thought would be possible and in some ways I've never been closer with another person. The more we get to know each other the deeper that feeling grows. I've been able to trust him unconditionally, not only with my past and body but my fears and hopes for the future. When we first started dating I couldn't believe I was worthy of such happiness in my life, but I've come to accept we're both just as beneficial for the other and I am worth it. I thought I had confidence before, but now I feel invincible.
My new house is awesome but has come with some landlord drama issues. We're still ironing a few things out with the utilities but Jess is easily the best roommate I've had. Our schedules are nearly perfect opposites so we don't see too much of each other but we fix things by communicating, what a concept. Our housewarming party was amazing, with about 20 people showing up for food and booze we managed to stuff everyone to the gills and let them leave happy.
My job, on the other hand, is not that great. My boss and I have never seen eye to eye on most political issues but while I'm willing to let it go he's constantly bringing it up so he can tell me why he's right and I'm an idiot. It wouldn't bother me except I spend about 14 hours with the guy on a given work day when you include the drive to and from Cooper. The pay is pretty crappy too because these country folks still don't understand that tipping starts at 15 percent. It's not "throw a couple bucks on the counter for a table of 6". I've haven't decided completely yet, but I think I might start looking for another waitress job. As much as I wish I could help Elias and his family start the new restaurant it's just too much stress for not enough money. Simple as that.
I also just found out an hour ago that my best friend is moving back to Dallas to live with her aunt. This is so amazing I can't even think coherently about it but I'm totally calling her tonight because we need to catch up on so much anyway. I also just found out I got a 4.0 for the semester, despite getting a B in Algebra. Don't ask me, I'm not going to complain! That just about sums everything up. Until I get internet access in my house I won't be able to update daily like I used to, but I'll do my best to keep it weekly at least. Love you guys, hope your Summer is going well!