I'd rather be loved by few than liked by many
Until a few days ago, there was a cup, in a box, in a plastic bag in the corner of my room. It was a Christmas gift I bought in December for who was then a fairly close friend. On Friday, I took the cup out of the box and put it in the dishwasher to use later, because I never hung out with that friend again after I purchased it.
Events have been put me in the mood lately to contemplate upon who my friends are, and I am repeatedly reminded that in College, your friends are transient. What is it that happens in College where two people can see each other so many times a week, and then after a while (usually an event like vacation, or change of dorms/majors, or various melodrama) just vanish into the blue? How can we ever appropriate our time correctly to the people we can rely on and the people we can't? How do we even know who the people we can rely on are to begin with?
I tend to blame myself as the abandoner in these incidents, as opposed to the abandon-ee, because I know I can seem cold. However, I'm always the way I am; I do not change my behavior between when I first meet someone and six months down the line - I am steadfast. If that wasn't good enough for them before, why did we start hanging out in the first place? Additionally, if we're friends, and they had a problem with how I was acting, why didn't they say it? Confrontation strengthens a friendship more than abstinence ever could . Either way, the burden does not solely fall on me to uphold a friendship. Furthermore, It happens to other people as well, so it must be pandemic.
I don't know. I'm tired of it. The end of the year is drawing and I am predicting who will disappear and who won't. When all is said and done, I do know there are some people I can rely on, no matter the season, and I appreciate it much more than I show.
Events have been put me in the mood lately to contemplate upon who my friends are, and I am repeatedly reminded that in College, your friends are transient. What is it that happens in College where two people can see each other so many times a week, and then after a while (usually an event like vacation, or change of dorms/majors, or various melodrama) just vanish into the blue? How can we ever appropriate our time correctly to the people we can rely on and the people we can't? How do we even know who the people we can rely on are to begin with?
I tend to blame myself as the abandoner in these incidents, as opposed to the abandon-ee, because I know I can seem cold. However, I'm always the way I am; I do not change my behavior between when I first meet someone and six months down the line - I am steadfast. If that wasn't good enough for them before, why did we start hanging out in the first place? Additionally, if we're friends, and they had a problem with how I was acting, why didn't they say it? Confrontation strengthens a friendship more than abstinence ever could . Either way, the burden does not solely fall on me to uphold a friendship. Furthermore, It happens to other people as well, so it must be pandemic.
I don't know. I'm tired of it. The end of the year is drawing and I am predicting who will disappear and who won't. When all is said and done, I do know there are some people I can rely on, no matter the season, and I appreciate it much more than I show.