gah.

[gbomber]

so, I'm single again...

it was hard fought. no matter how long all the shit went on, she pressed through it, saying love the entire time.

and I'm happy it's over. I'm happy we're not just being two big hunks of friction towards each other. no matter how much you love someone or whatever, it still totally sucks to cause them pain or receive pain from them - especially when it's not intentional.

but yanno? I'm a sap.

I still love everyone I ever did.

that's just me, tho. I can't hate people I've ever felt anything for. it's just not me.

and I miss her. but I realize that the time in our lives where we meshed so perfectly is gone. I'm grown and different. she's grown and different. that's what a year and a half does to people.

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oy.

doesn't mean I can't pine for or just miss the days we had together, yanno?

and, far as I can tell, she's with someone else.

again, these things make me sad. not because I want to be with her, but because she wants to be with someone else. even though I told her she should be with someone that makes her happy.

because I wanna see her happy. I do. I just want...

damnit, I dunno what I want.

peace out, I'm gonna go to the corner store and get some pepsi.