Never Felt This Way Before
So... im sitting here today... wondering what love is... i do believe that i was in love... but sometimes i dont see how that could have been.... feelin the way i feel right now makes me think maybe i never was... i smile all the time... i laugh all the time.. and feelin this way makes me never want to change back to whatever i changed in to to make me not feel this way... i am not the only one who had noticed this change either... everyone said that i was not being myself... and for that i hate myself because one of the MAIN things i cannot stand is someone who is fake... fakeness makes me madder than just about anything... and for ME to have been fake... i cant even stand to think about it... i would not trade the way i feel right now for anything in the world.. i love how i laugh and cant quit smiling... i love to be ME again... i say that i was in love... but after feeling this... i dont remember this feeling ever being what i felt when i was "in love" and maybe there are different kinds of love... really i dont know... im so sorry for ever hurting the person who says he loves me more than life... and im sorry to say that nothing will ever happen between us again because i know this hurts you but i cant lie to you and i dont want to... im sorry for everything i have ever done to hurt you... and i do love you for everything you have a done for me... but for now this is all i can say... <3 me