Completely Confused
Here in the past few month i have thought.... ALOT... i guess its a good thing but after thinking that much i am still confused about everything i have thought about.... how do you go from being the nicest person in the world... to acting like you dont care at all? I understand people change... and the world around them causes them to do so... but if you tell someone you love them more than life itself... you would NEVER act like you don't... dont get me wrong... i understand that things can harden your heart... but not to the extent that the one you claim to love doesnt even know there is love there anymore... I dont understand why you would show someone so much affection after they are gone to try to gain them back... im sorry that i dont understand these things but i dont know how to change myself... and i really dont know that i should... people cant help their feelings... im sorry for hurin you as much as i do... for that i hate myself... but i also cant take it back... or i would... i would love to make you happy... but i dont know how... in loving me I hurt you... please understand that i never wanted to hurt you... i love you for not hating me... and this is all i can say... <3 me