I am so confused damn it..
WELL I THINK I AM FALLING IN LOVE, BUT HOW DO I KNOW WHEN THE ONE GUY I WANT DONS'T WANT ME AT ALL.. I DON'T KNOW THAT FOR SURE WE HAVN'T TALKED AND HE DONS'T TALK TO ME, THIS IS GETTING CHILDISH IF HE TRULLY DIND'T WANT ME HE SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME TO MY FACE INSTEAD OF BEING A CHILD AND IGNORING ME..SOMEONE TOLD ME HAD A CRUSH AND I WAS LIKE "OK SO!!?" THEY THOUGHT I WOULD WANT TO KNOW, ACTUALLY THAT HURTS MORE THEN NOT KNOWING, IT WAS REALLY FUCKED UP. I HATE FUCKEN PEOPLE THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO KEEP THIER MOUTH SHUT!!!!
WELL I HAVN'T BEEN OUT IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS AND I AM GETTING IRRITADED STAYING HOME ALL WEEKEND AND BEING A COMPUTER WHORE... I WONDER IF IT WOULD BE ESIER IF I MOVED TO A DIFFERENT PLACE MAYBE I WOULD FEEL MORE OPEN AND CONFORTABLE AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GOD'S PLAN, JUST LIVE MY LIFE FAR AWAY.. THIS VALLEY HAS DONE NOTHING FOR ME, IT HAS ONLY BRAUGHT ME PAIN AND HEARTBREAK AND I AM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE CRAP ALL THE TIME...I WANT TO START KNEW AND FRESH AND LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND ME, I KNOW I WILL NEVER FORGET IT, BUT JUST LEAVE IT BEHIND.. THEY SAY BEFORE YOU MOVE THAT YOU CAN'T JUST MOVE TO GET AWAY FROM YOU PROBLEM'S WELL I AM NOT MOVING TO GET AWAY I DON'T HAVE ANY, I AM MOVING TO BETTER MYSELF... I THINK I HAVE THE CHANCE TO MOVE TO NEW YORK, AND IF I DO I AM GONE FIRST PLANE, I AM OUT, I RATHER BE FAR AWAY FROM THIS PLACE THEN CLOSE.. I AM STILL KEEPING MY OPTIONS OPEN, SAN DIEGO, AND LOS ANGELES.. I JUST WANT TO GO BACK BEFORE RUBEN, BECAUSE I WAS HAPPIER, BUT YET I WAS EVEN MORE HAPPIER WHEN I WAS WITH HIM, HE MADE MY CARES GO AWAY, AND HE MADE ALL THE WEIGHT ON MY SHOULDERS DISAPEAR.. I WANT THAT BACK, AND I WANT HIM BACK...
WELL WHAT MORE CAN I DO, I NEED TO MOVE ON AND BE STRONG AND HAVE FAITH, IF GOD REALLY WANTED ME WITH HIM, I WOULD BE WITH HIM.. I NEED TO PRAY
WELL I HAVN'T BEEN OUT IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS AND I AM GETTING IRRITADED STAYING HOME ALL WEEKEND AND BEING A COMPUTER WHORE... I WONDER IF IT WOULD BE ESIER IF I MOVED TO A DIFFERENT PLACE MAYBE I WOULD FEEL MORE OPEN AND CONFORTABLE AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GOD'S PLAN, JUST LIVE MY LIFE FAR AWAY.. THIS VALLEY HAS DONE NOTHING FOR ME, IT HAS ONLY BRAUGHT ME PAIN AND HEARTBREAK AND I AM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE CRAP ALL THE TIME...I WANT TO START KNEW AND FRESH AND LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND ME, I KNOW I WILL NEVER FORGET IT, BUT JUST LEAVE IT BEHIND.. THEY SAY BEFORE YOU MOVE THAT YOU CAN'T JUST MOVE TO GET AWAY FROM YOU PROBLEM'S WELL I AM NOT MOVING TO GET AWAY I DON'T HAVE ANY, I AM MOVING TO BETTER MYSELF... I THINK I HAVE THE CHANCE TO MOVE TO NEW YORK, AND IF I DO I AM GONE FIRST PLANE, I AM OUT, I RATHER BE FAR AWAY FROM THIS PLACE THEN CLOSE.. I AM STILL KEEPING MY OPTIONS OPEN, SAN DIEGO, AND LOS ANGELES.. I JUST WANT TO GO BACK BEFORE RUBEN, BECAUSE I WAS HAPPIER, BUT YET I WAS EVEN MORE HAPPIER WHEN I WAS WITH HIM, HE MADE MY CARES GO AWAY, AND HE MADE ALL THE WEIGHT ON MY SHOULDERS DISAPEAR.. I WANT THAT BACK, AND I WANT HIM BACK...
WELL WHAT MORE CAN I DO, I NEED TO MOVE ON AND BE STRONG AND HAVE FAITH, IF GOD REALLY WANTED ME WITH HIM, I WOULD BE WITH HIM.. I NEED TO PRAY