Actually using this journal
Well I'm not usually one to write in a journal but I feel the need to at least somewhat vent.
My mother died on Feb 17th of this year. She and my father were very happily married for 38 years. My father got engaged 2 weeks ago and the wedding is set for Jan 6th. I am the fifth of six children and the only one living with our father and having to deal with him. Yet I seem to be the one that is the least freaked out about this. I don't know if I am simply repressing or I am actually dealing with this better emotionally. I have always taken after my father in that I am not an overly emotional person. Sometimes to the point where I think there is something wrong with me that I don't feel things more strongly.
My sister is the oldest but I am the only other girl so despite a 12 year age gap we are really very close and she is probably my best friend. The entire situation with my dad and his short courtship (barely a month) has seriously freaked her out. I am usually very strongly influenced by her and I normally don't mind. She has a lot of life experience on me and I appreciate the benefit of learning from her. However with her so strongly freaking and trying to deal it is upsetting me and making it difficult for me to deal. Things I am mildly uncomfortable with (such as the PDA's by dad's new fiance while we were having lunch at a very nice restaurant) will later in private send my sister into a strong rant as I am the safest person for her to vent to. She doesn't want to vent to her husband because he is already pissed at my dad for ignoring all his children's feelings on the matter.
That is all ignoring the side issue of who the new fiance is. This part usually gets a laugh from all but one of us kids. She is my oldest brother's mother-in-law. I guess you know which one of us doesn't think that it's very funny. He also doesn't appreciate all the redneck jokes or the talk of showing up at the wedding barefoot and in overalls wearing straw hats and sucking on a piece of hay. Truthfully he has every right to be upset. He has just finished adding a mother-in-law apartment to his house. A very expensive addition that has put the entire house in turmoil as they were also remodeling most of the house and he was doing a lot of the work himself. This has caused a lot of frustration on his part and some tension in his marriage as his wife was very supportive of the relationship.
I want to thank anyone who bothers to read this. I just needed to write it down to maybe clarify to myself how I feel about it.
Thanks for listening.
My mother died on Feb 17th of this year. She and my father were very happily married for 38 years. My father got engaged 2 weeks ago and the wedding is set for Jan 6th. I am the fifth of six children and the only one living with our father and having to deal with him. Yet I seem to be the one that is the least freaked out about this. I don't know if I am simply repressing or I am actually dealing with this better emotionally. I have always taken after my father in that I am not an overly emotional person. Sometimes to the point where I think there is something wrong with me that I don't feel things more strongly.
My sister is the oldest but I am the only other girl so despite a 12 year age gap we are really very close and she is probably my best friend. The entire situation with my dad and his short courtship (barely a month) has seriously freaked her out. I am usually very strongly influenced by her and I normally don't mind. She has a lot of life experience on me and I appreciate the benefit of learning from her. However with her so strongly freaking and trying to deal it is upsetting me and making it difficult for me to deal. Things I am mildly uncomfortable with (such as the PDA's by dad's new fiance while we were having lunch at a very nice restaurant) will later in private send my sister into a strong rant as I am the safest person for her to vent to. She doesn't want to vent to her husband because he is already pissed at my dad for ignoring all his children's feelings on the matter.
That is all ignoring the side issue of who the new fiance is. This part usually gets a laugh from all but one of us kids. She is my oldest brother's mother-in-law. I guess you know which one of us doesn't think that it's very funny. He also doesn't appreciate all the redneck jokes or the talk of showing up at the wedding barefoot and in overalls wearing straw hats and sucking on a piece of hay. Truthfully he has every right to be upset. He has just finished adding a mother-in-law apartment to his house. A very expensive addition that has put the entire house in turmoil as they were also remodeling most of the house and he was doing a lot of the work himself. This has caused a lot of frustration on his part and some tension in his marriage as his wife was very supportive of the relationship.
I want to thank anyone who bothers to read this. I just needed to write it down to maybe clarify to myself how I feel about it.
Thanks for listening.