All poetry as of now
All poetry as of now
My Sweet Angel (U know who you are)
angel of my dreams
i caught every kiss
you blew from afar
on alabaster cheeks
that glowed red
from your devotion
i raised ash blue eyes
to a sky
that shimmered with stars
that you set a lite
with your souls passion
through crimson lips
i whispered
your beloved name
a thousand times
and still
my ears burn
to hear it
a thousand more
with a feather light stroke
of your wings
you left your mark
upon my lonely heart
and willed it back to life
like a wave
crashing into shore
my hand reaches for yours
not complete
till it reaches
its final destination
in your grasp
my foolish heart
knows no bounds
as it searches
through time and space
to beat
to the rythym of yours
but alas
my soul cries
a mournful tune
as the wind
whispers its sweet melody
my outstretched arms
only fill with empty air
as i seek to embrace you
like so many times before
my broken heart
was hopeful
only to shatter
in the presense
of your absense
because only dreams are perfect
so in my dreams
is where ill keep you
my sweet angel
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Plastic Poets
I must have accidentally
stumbled into the 'cool crowd'...
I'm done with the high school
yearbook autographs (comments).
I'm done with the fashion show critics.
Since when did love notes, friendship letters,
become the model for exceptional poetry?
I've seen the good leave
and the bad stay...things are gonna change.
I've thought about leaving...
but instead I'm coming back in force...
like 8 mile,
except I'm gonna make you walk 16...
I'm sick of the brown nosers, comment whores,
fake suicidals, spotlighters...things are gonna
change.
If you don't like me- I don't give a shit...
more importantly, if you don't like my poetry...
even better.
you
can
have
your
comments
back
you
can
take
me
off
your
favorites
you
can
unbookmark
my works...
It's up to you...
But don't use me
or my work
as a battlefield
for your social insecurities...
The Chameleon has shed its skin once again,
POETRY JOCKS AND CHEERLEADERS: you represent
everything that artists, musicians,
poets and artistic minded individuals despise...
you represent everything artificial, and worthless to
our fucked up little world...
congratulations,
there's another comment for your yearbook...
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The Love that Never was and Never Could be
Here I am but where are you
What am I to do
You said you’d be here but you’re not
You must have forgot
But do you remember what you said
You said you’d love me even after I was dead
You can prove that’s true
Was you lying or never knew
You left me so I’m leaving you
Someone loves me but who
You said it was for the best
But I’m just like the rest
You left me when I needed you the most but you still
need me more
And who did you leave me for
Was it the love you said would last forever
But you two aren’t even together
Maybe you did and maybe you still do
But I do and I will always love you
After tonight I’ll be gone
Never again to see the dawn
I never had and I’ll never have your love
It was something I could only dream of
So when I’m dead and gone
Will the love live on
The love that never was and never could be
Did you ever love me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Bleeding
I’m bleeding,
Yet, neither blade touched nor fire burned me,
But rather, deep inside,
My wounds are too infected
To let me die in peace.
Within this spherical chamber
A wistful light breaks through a crack,
Just a harbinger of shadows,
And ever I dwell in just such a chamber,
This place that has broken me in twain.
I despise the confines of my flesh,
This prison has eaten at me,
And I do so greatly desire
To rip, tear at it, misshape it,
So that it is not so subtle
In its destruction of my esteem.
I have held that precious heirloom,
Oh, I once had such a beautiful mind,
And oh! How I wish to be happy again,
To be ignorant and happy again.
But oh, that bleakest vision was granted me,
A sight of myself slowly dying.
My skin was merely a canvas
On which my blood was to paint,
Such an image of withering silence.
Lo! I feel the vital fluid upon me,
Yet I cannot see its crimson hue,
But my eyes have deceived me before,
Have lied to and mocked me before.
No matter, it is there,
I require not such a vision
To confirm my sanity;
I know it is there,
It’s always there
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Why?
i liked you so much
you dont even know
but i guess
i have to let you go
i wish we could go back
to that fatefull night
maybe things would be better
maybe we would be together
(corus)
i hate my life
i really do
if you just knew
i need you
(repeat 2x)
you really hurt me
and im sorry you hurt hurt too
all i can do is ask
for forgivness from you
but mow its too to late
and i cant go back
all i can feel is the hate
you have for me now
(Corus 2x)
i hpoe it doesnt last
even though i know it will
cause i already miss you
why is life so hard?
is it just me?
why cant i be forgiven
you are all i see
(Corus 2x, then fades away)
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
One Cut
A heart in death still yearning
When there is no lessons left worth learning
And all the world is burning
One cut
It was the deepest
One taste
It was the sweetest
To try and care for those
Who care not of who you are
Yet that one deep cut
Left the sweetest scar
And the screams are deafening
The pain they can not bare
Cry a river of blood
When there’s not a drop to spare
Afraid that is a simple word
To express this emotion I feel
When the world is much to vast
Yet none of it is real
I don’t expect you to understand
I never thought you would see
The cruel and heartless truth
Of my reality
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
You Hurt Me
You were everything I wanted you to be
Older, gorgeous, chraming-showering me with flattery
I was young and naive, depressed and insecure
And when you showed your intrest in me
t made the darkness go
For the first time in a long while there was light in
my life
Making me so vulneralble to you, as butter is to a hot
knife
We wasted no time in getting physical together
Never stepping back and wondering whether
You and I were on the same page
Looking back now it's clear we weren't at the same
stage
I loved you- that's something I'm not afraid to say
Yet we're both fully aware you didn't feel the same
way
I wanted your arms for us to cuddle together
You just wanted me for your own pleasure
I hate the fact you used me- almost too much to
forgive
But I must take some of the blame and with this I must
live
I should of slowed it down, and not allowed myself to
fall
Yet what I thought was your love soothed my broken
soul
Little time passed befor I submitted, thinking your
love was real
We intertwined our bodies- together I thought we were
sealed
You weren't in love; you just wanted what you could
get
And once you succeeded, though
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I'm Sorry
I thought about you again today
And I realized that I never
Threw you away
I still hold all the things about you
Here inside my heart
Like a scrapbook of memories
That I put together part by part
I sorted through the pages
With pictures of you an I
In some we are laughing
And in others we cry
I love them all so dear
But I tore them all in two
Because it’s just too hard
To keep these feelings of you
I dusted out the pages
Of the dried petals that remained
I kept them so that I could
Still have flowers when it rained
And all they did was remind me
Of just how good you were
And I thought for a moment
But I keep forgetting
And my mind is getting off track
I’m supposed to be getting rid of you
And never looking back
That sweet smell of purity
That never could go bad
I threw away the snip of a wing
From the butterflies you once gave
And how every time I saw you
They flapped their wings in rage
I threw away the kisses
That you gave me
I kept so many of them
Because they were always the best
And emptied out all my pages
And left them all bare
But someway, somehow
I still felt you there
A little piece of you remained
In a small and thoughtful way
But I didn’t get rid of that
because i still hope you'll come back one day..
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Special
Special people, special places.
Shattered dreams but hopeful faces.
The light gets brighter when you walk into the room.
Right when I'm locked in a lightless doom.
Beautiful sounds, beautiful thoughts.
Ugly colors but stripes and polka dots.
Emotions change when you walk into the room.
You'll see me smile real soon.
You touch me and I'm on the floor.
Melted sliding under the door.
People change when you walk in the room.
We're gonna smile real soon.
We're gonna smile real soon
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Everything
You were everything I wanted you to be
Older, gorgeous, chraming-showering me with flattery
I was young and naive, depressed and insecure
And when you showed your intrest in me
t made the darkness go
For the first time in a long while there was light in
my life
Making me so vulneralble to you, as butter is to a hot
knife
We wasted no time in getting physical together
Never stepping back and wondering whether
You and I were on the same page
Looking back now it's clear we weren't at the same
stage
I loved you- that's something I'm not afraid to say
Yet we're both fully aware you didn't feel the same
way
I wanted your arms for us to cuddle together
You just wanted me for your own pleasure
I hate the fact you used me- almost too much to
forgive
But I must take some of the blame and with this I must
live
I should of slowed it down, and not allowed myself to
fall
Yet what I thought was your love soothed my broken
soul
Little time passed befor I submitted, thinking your
love was real
We intertwined our bodies- together I thought we were
sealed
You weren't in love; you just wanted what you could
get
And once you succeeded
(¯`v´¯)
`*.¸.*´
¸.•´¸.•*¨) ¸.•*¨)
(¸.•´ (¸.•´ .•´ ¸¸.•¨¯`•.*Ben
My Sweet Angel (U know who you are)
angel of my dreams
i caught every kiss
you blew from afar
on alabaster cheeks
that glowed red
from your devotion
i raised ash blue eyes
to a sky
that shimmered with stars
that you set a lite
with your souls passion
through crimson lips
i whispered
your beloved name
a thousand times
and still
my ears burn
to hear it
a thousand more
with a feather light stroke
of your wings
you left your mark
upon my lonely heart
and willed it back to life
like a wave
crashing into shore
my hand reaches for yours
not complete
till it reaches
its final destination
in your grasp
my foolish heart
knows no bounds
as it searches
through time and space
to beat
to the rythym of yours
but alas
my soul cries
a mournful tune
as the wind
whispers its sweet melody
my outstretched arms
only fill with empty air
as i seek to embrace you
like so many times before
my broken heart
was hopeful
only to shatter
in the presense
of your absense
because only dreams are perfect
so in my dreams
is where ill keep you
my sweet angel
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Plastic Poets
I must have accidentally
stumbled into the 'cool crowd'...
I'm done with the high school
yearbook autographs (comments).
I'm done with the fashion show critics.
Since when did love notes, friendship letters,
become the model for exceptional poetry?
I've seen the good leave
and the bad stay...things are gonna change.
I've thought about leaving...
but instead I'm coming back in force...
like 8 mile,
except I'm gonna make you walk 16...
I'm sick of the brown nosers, comment whores,
fake suicidals, spotlighters...things are gonna
change.
If you don't like me- I don't give a shit...
more importantly, if you don't like my poetry...
even better.
you
can
have
your
comments
back
you
can
take
me
off
your
favorites
you
can
unbookmark
my works...
It's up to you...
But don't use me
or my work
as a battlefield
for your social insecurities...
The Chameleon has shed its skin once again,
POETRY JOCKS AND CHEERLEADERS: you represent
everything that artists, musicians,
poets and artistic minded individuals despise...
you represent everything artificial, and worthless to
our fucked up little world...
congratulations,
there's another comment for your yearbook...
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The Love that Never was and Never Could be
Here I am but where are you
What am I to do
You said you’d be here but you’re not
You must have forgot
But do you remember what you said
You said you’d love me even after I was dead
You can prove that’s true
Was you lying or never knew
You left me so I’m leaving you
Someone loves me but who
You said it was for the best
But I’m just like the rest
You left me when I needed you the most but you still
need me more
And who did you leave me for
Was it the love you said would last forever
But you two aren’t even together
Maybe you did and maybe you still do
But I do and I will always love you
After tonight I’ll be gone
Never again to see the dawn
I never had and I’ll never have your love
It was something I could only dream of
So when I’m dead and gone
Will the love live on
The love that never was and never could be
Did you ever love me
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Bleeding
I’m bleeding,
Yet, neither blade touched nor fire burned me,
But rather, deep inside,
My wounds are too infected
To let me die in peace.
Within this spherical chamber
A wistful light breaks through a crack,
Just a harbinger of shadows,
And ever I dwell in just such a chamber,
This place that has broken me in twain.
I despise the confines of my flesh,
This prison has eaten at me,
And I do so greatly desire
To rip, tear at it, misshape it,
So that it is not so subtle
In its destruction of my esteem.
I have held that precious heirloom,
Oh, I once had such a beautiful mind,
And oh! How I wish to be happy again,
To be ignorant and happy again.
But oh, that bleakest vision was granted me,
A sight of myself slowly dying.
My skin was merely a canvas
On which my blood was to paint,
Such an image of withering silence.
Lo! I feel the vital fluid upon me,
Yet I cannot see its crimson hue,
But my eyes have deceived me before,
Have lied to and mocked me before.
No matter, it is there,
I require not such a vision
To confirm my sanity;
I know it is there,
It’s always there
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Why?
i liked you so much
you dont even know
but i guess
i have to let you go
i wish we could go back
to that fatefull night
maybe things would be better
maybe we would be together
(corus)
i hate my life
i really do
if you just knew
i need you
(repeat 2x)
you really hurt me
and im sorry you hurt hurt too
all i can do is ask
for forgivness from you
but mow its too to late
and i cant go back
all i can feel is the hate
you have for me now
(Corus 2x)
i hpoe it doesnt last
even though i know it will
cause i already miss you
why is life so hard?
is it just me?
why cant i be forgiven
you are all i see
(Corus 2x, then fades away)
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
One Cut
A heart in death still yearning
When there is no lessons left worth learning
And all the world is burning
One cut
It was the deepest
One taste
It was the sweetest
To try and care for those
Who care not of who you are
Yet that one deep cut
Left the sweetest scar
And the screams are deafening
The pain they can not bare
Cry a river of blood
When there’s not a drop to spare
Afraid that is a simple word
To express this emotion I feel
When the world is much to vast
Yet none of it is real
I don’t expect you to understand
I never thought you would see
The cruel and heartless truth
Of my reality
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
You Hurt Me
You were everything I wanted you to be
Older, gorgeous, chraming-showering me with flattery
I was young and naive, depressed and insecure
And when you showed your intrest in me
t made the darkness go
For the first time in a long while there was light in
my life
Making me so vulneralble to you, as butter is to a hot
knife
We wasted no time in getting physical together
Never stepping back and wondering whether
You and I were on the same page
Looking back now it's clear we weren't at the same
stage
I loved you- that's something I'm not afraid to say
Yet we're both fully aware you didn't feel the same
way
I wanted your arms for us to cuddle together
You just wanted me for your own pleasure
I hate the fact you used me- almost too much to
forgive
But I must take some of the blame and with this I must
live
I should of slowed it down, and not allowed myself to
fall
Yet what I thought was your love soothed my broken
soul
Little time passed befor I submitted, thinking your
love was real
We intertwined our bodies- together I thought we were
sealed
You weren't in love; you just wanted what you could
get
And once you succeeded, though
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I'm Sorry
I thought about you again today
And I realized that I never
Threw you away
I still hold all the things about you
Here inside my heart
Like a scrapbook of memories
That I put together part by part
I sorted through the pages
With pictures of you an I
In some we are laughing
And in others we cry
I love them all so dear
But I tore them all in two
Because it’s just too hard
To keep these feelings of you
I dusted out the pages
Of the dried petals that remained
I kept them so that I could
Still have flowers when it rained
And all they did was remind me
Of just how good you were
And I thought for a moment
But I keep forgetting
And my mind is getting off track
I’m supposed to be getting rid of you
And never looking back
That sweet smell of purity
That never could go bad
I threw away the snip of a wing
From the butterflies you once gave
And how every time I saw you
They flapped their wings in rage
I threw away the kisses
That you gave me
I kept so many of them
Because they were always the best
And emptied out all my pages
And left them all bare
But someway, somehow
I still felt you there
A little piece of you remained
In a small and thoughtful way
But I didn’t get rid of that
because i still hope you'll come back one day..
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Special
Special people, special places.
Shattered dreams but hopeful faces.
The light gets brighter when you walk into the room.
Right when I'm locked in a lightless doom.
Beautiful sounds, beautiful thoughts.
Ugly colors but stripes and polka dots.
Emotions change when you walk into the room.
You'll see me smile real soon.
You touch me and I'm on the floor.
Melted sliding under the door.
People change when you walk in the room.
We're gonna smile real soon.
We're gonna smile real soon
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Everything
You were everything I wanted you to be
Older, gorgeous, chraming-showering me with flattery
I was young and naive, depressed and insecure
And when you showed your intrest in me
t made the darkness go
For the first time in a long while there was light in
my life
Making me so vulneralble to you, as butter is to a hot
knife
We wasted no time in getting physical together
Never stepping back and wondering whether
You and I were on the same page
Looking back now it's clear we weren't at the same
stage
I loved you- that's something I'm not afraid to say
Yet we're both fully aware you didn't feel the same
way
I wanted your arms for us to cuddle together
You just wanted me for your own pleasure
I hate the fact you used me- almost too much to
forgive
But I must take some of the blame and with this I must
live
I should of slowed it down, and not allowed myself to
fall
Yet what I thought was your love soothed my broken
soul
Little time passed befor I submitted, thinking your
love was real
We intertwined our bodies- together I thought we were
sealed
You weren't in love; you just wanted what you could
get
And once you succeeded
(¯`v´¯)
`*.¸.*´
¸.•´¸.•*¨) ¸.•*¨)
(¸.•´ (¸.•´ .•´ ¸¸.•¨¯`•.*Ben