Lockdown, Day #201
The fact that today is World Mental Health Day feels even more significant in these uncertain times.
I had one of those mornings when I just procrastinate, so even when I have lots of things planned to do, I just end up wasting time on Livejournal - 90 minutes, to be exact, reading through old entries.
It made me realise that I whitewashed over a lot of stuff that ticked me off; it was like at times I only wanted to talk about the good things. I start thinking, to quote a Meat Loaf song, "Why didn't I say that? Why didn't I say this?" It's like I was in denial about all the little things that people at work did that I felt slighted by.
I felt slighted this week; someone at work had organised virtual leaving drinks, and it seems that my team got left off the invite, which wasn't forwarded to us. My team often get missed off these things, and I remember discussing this with a colleague, and when I mentioned being missed off invites for drinks, she replied, "But that doesn't matter".
I would say it does matter, after work drinks are the best ways to get to know your own colleagues; otherwise, they're often strangers in an office who often seem to busy to chat, or who think you're strange if you try to chat when you don't know them; a kind of stranger danger thing.
I'd like to think that someone last night questioned where I was, something like "I'm surprised Gavin didn't show up", but it's always easy to suspect my absence just isn't noticed by others, and that I'm not missed at all.
I'm not sure how leaving drinks online would have been; would it just have been some mass conversation that I'd have struggled to get a word in on? Would someone have even acknowledged me joining the virtual meeting? I guess I won't know, for now anyway.
Today, I had the family around, to help with some DIY, to put up the unit I got from IKEA. I ended up making a bit of a mess in my flat, but it's looking a bit nicer now.
Here is me helping to put the cabinet together.
I've done some more rearranging in my flat, I decided to line up my Buffy/Angel/David Boreanaz/Eliza Dushku DVD and VHS collection rather than just leaving them in my wardrobe. Mum insisted on cleaning my flat because I have a very different idea of "clean" than others, and we had a walk, and then got a takeaway - I had goat tacos; delicious, and similar to lamb - maybe that shouldn't surprise me too much.
And now, I'm going to log off and put on a film.
I had one of those mornings when I just procrastinate, so even when I have lots of things planned to do, I just end up wasting time on Livejournal - 90 minutes, to be exact, reading through old entries.
It made me realise that I whitewashed over a lot of stuff that ticked me off; it was like at times I only wanted to talk about the good things. I start thinking, to quote a Meat Loaf song, "Why didn't I say that? Why didn't I say this?" It's like I was in denial about all the little things that people at work did that I felt slighted by.
I felt slighted this week; someone at work had organised virtual leaving drinks, and it seems that my team got left off the invite, which wasn't forwarded to us. My team often get missed off these things, and I remember discussing this with a colleague, and when I mentioned being missed off invites for drinks, she replied, "But that doesn't matter".
I would say it does matter, after work drinks are the best ways to get to know your own colleagues; otherwise, they're often strangers in an office who often seem to busy to chat, or who think you're strange if you try to chat when you don't know them; a kind of stranger danger thing.
I'd like to think that someone last night questioned where I was, something like "I'm surprised Gavin didn't show up", but it's always easy to suspect my absence just isn't noticed by others, and that I'm not missed at all.
I'm not sure how leaving drinks online would have been; would it just have been some mass conversation that I'd have struggled to get a word in on? Would someone have even acknowledged me joining the virtual meeting? I guess I won't know, for now anyway.
Today, I had the family around, to help with some DIY, to put up the unit I got from IKEA. I ended up making a bit of a mess in my flat, but it's looking a bit nicer now.
Here is me helping to put the cabinet together.
I've done some more rearranging in my flat, I decided to line up my Buffy/Angel/David Boreanaz/Eliza Dushku DVD and VHS collection rather than just leaving them in my wardrobe. Mum insisted on cleaning my flat because I have a very different idea of "clean" than others, and we had a walk, and then got a takeaway - I had goat tacos; delicious, and similar to lamb - maybe that shouldn't surprise me too much.
And now, I'm going to log off and put on a film.