You're funny

[gaspains]

Oh my God...
Why do you deny me?
I scream at you to listen
My throat bleeds from the strain
I'll scream until I choke and gag on my blood
I need you to scream back at me
To know if you're listening
All I get from you are my echos
They intensify my sorrows
You've never heeded my prayers
I've been saying the same one for years
"Help me understand
Why I feel the way I do
These thoughts in my head
Make me self destruct
Why am I my own worst enemy?
Please help me fight the demons inside
Be my sword and shield
And protect me from the hate...
The hate I feel for myself"
I've wasted my breath on you
I've wasted my life on you
I'm just your sick little joke
You created me
To see me scream
To see me fall
To see me bleed
As I cut myself
Just to feel alive
Inconsistent me...
Crying out for consistency