while i am waiting...
i feel that all i do lately is rush and wait. rush and wait. rush to the office, wait for the radio show. rush through the radio show, wait for food. rush to eat, rush to the office, rush for the bus, wait for the bus. back and forth. all the time. every day. i think it is indicative of the fact that i need to slow the fuck down and then maybe things will balance out.
i am currently waiting for a meeting to begin. a meeting about the upcoming elections that everyone will of course say that they heard nothing about. "what elections? what for?" we heard in class today when i announced it. for those of you non-trent specific people, last elections, we had 185 people vote. i voted, and i'm a part-time student so they couldn't count my vote! one hundred and eighty five. here are 8,000 students at trent. it makes me so sad. i hate how many excuses people use. this time if you don't vote you're affecting 11 student groups and 6 candidates! please change the headlines from "apathy rears its ugly head once again" to "APATHY OVERCOME!" do it for us.
anyway, to pass the time i am mulling over the paper that i got an extension on. no one knows how big of a slacker extensions make me feel like. guilt guilt guilt has been consuming my life lately. 5 weeks 5 weeks 5 weeks, i think over and over. last night when i was exhausted will hugged me as i fell asleep and said, "one issue down, how many more to go?" 5. five. five weeks left. i just bumped into chloe and found myself saying the same things. i know i will always meet new people and will never really be "alone" but i cannot fathom a year without will, justyne, chloe, mackenzie, sommer, andrea, adrienne, hussan, and so on and so on. lesson: only make friends with people who are not your age. then you will be the one leaving them!
i have never known so many secrets that i am not allowed to tell anyone! i don't have any of my own, which i suppose is good because they wouldn't stay secrets if they belonged to me. i just wish i had a way to lock them away and forget about them and not want to tell people. does that make me a bad person?
today my penpal anna sent me ELECTRONIC mail. soon, instead of sending things to hawaii, i may be sending them to montreal! how exciting. then maybe one day we could meet. i believe we have our one year penpal-aversary coming up. or perhaps it has passed! by any means, i owe her mail. i like having someone who i do not "know" face to face to share my life with.
3 minutes until my meeting. i am off.
i am currently waiting for a meeting to begin. a meeting about the upcoming elections that everyone will of course say that they heard nothing about. "what elections? what for?" we heard in class today when i announced it. for those of you non-trent specific people, last elections, we had 185 people vote. i voted, and i'm a part-time student so they couldn't count my vote! one hundred and eighty five. here are 8,000 students at trent. it makes me so sad. i hate how many excuses people use. this time if you don't vote you're affecting 11 student groups and 6 candidates! please change the headlines from "apathy rears its ugly head once again" to "APATHY OVERCOME!" do it for us.
anyway, to pass the time i am mulling over the paper that i got an extension on. no one knows how big of a slacker extensions make me feel like. guilt guilt guilt has been consuming my life lately. 5 weeks 5 weeks 5 weeks, i think over and over. last night when i was exhausted will hugged me as i fell asleep and said, "one issue down, how many more to go?" 5. five. five weeks left. i just bumped into chloe and found myself saying the same things. i know i will always meet new people and will never really be "alone" but i cannot fathom a year without will, justyne, chloe, mackenzie, sommer, andrea, adrienne, hussan, and so on and so on. lesson: only make friends with people who are not your age. then you will be the one leaving them!
i have never known so many secrets that i am not allowed to tell anyone! i don't have any of my own, which i suppose is good because they wouldn't stay secrets if they belonged to me. i just wish i had a way to lock them away and forget about them and not want to tell people. does that make me a bad person?
today my penpal anna sent me ELECTRONIC mail. soon, instead of sending things to hawaii, i may be sending them to montreal! how exciting. then maybe one day we could meet. i believe we have our one year penpal-aversary coming up. or perhaps it has passed! by any means, i owe her mail. i like having someone who i do not "know" face to face to share my life with.
3 minutes until my meeting. i am off.