on my lunch break
I never post here anymore, largely due to not having internet at home...
I had a bizarre dream the other night that was almost a nightmare - I had to turn the light on when I woke up - but it wasn't that scary and I couldn't figure out why I was so freaked out when I woke up. The only part I can remember is that I was driving toward's Derik's house, but at some point my car became a golf cart, which made me feel very vulnerable, and there was a dark, scary forest on the side of the street (it was on Wealthy SW - no trees are actually there) with lots of weird animal noises coming from it. It took me a few minutes to figure out how to turn on the headlights, but I drove away very quickly and afterwards I was telling my mom about the experience. And that was it. I drive past there all the time so it makes sense that I would dream about it, but I don't know where the scary woods came from.
I realized recently that I graduated from college almost two years ago already! And I feel I'm in a similar spot to the situation I was in while transitioning from HS to college - several of my friends have moved and I don't get to see my close friends, especially my female friends, who are still around nearly as often as I'd like. This is something that is so important to me, and I don't really know how to deal with it whenever it comes up. My job is for the most part not fulfilling, so I try to do things in my free time that allow me to be creative, but there isn't always time for everything I like to do. It has been very frustrating lately.
My plans for going back to school are also basically on hold, as Josh decided he wants to go back for his Art Education degree. I think this is perfect for him and I want him to finish school; only I don't see how we could pay our bills with both of us in school without living off of loans - something we do NOT want to do - assuming we could even get them during this "credit crunch." There are also very few things we could cut out of our budget, and even our rent is as inexpensive as anything we are going to find. I have a modest-sized education award grant that will be available to me at the start of August as my AmeriCorps term ends, which would be enough to cover an Associate's degree but wouldn't go very far for an advanced degree. I have considered using it for an AA in photography though, as that is something I have always wanted to do. I would probably not be any more able to land a good job with that, though, than I am now with my BA in English. Unfortunately I just have very impractical interests!