Again with the heartbreak...
I don't even know where to begin. I would much rather be speaking to somebody, but seeing how it's 2am, my LJ will have to do. Without beating around the bush, I suppose I just come right out and say it. I have to make a decision, as to whether Kelly and I should stay together, or go our separate ways. I hate being wishy washy. I hate being weak. I hate being indecisive. I hate being scared. And I hate being alone. And now, here I am, all of those things wrapped up in one.
I can't even think straight right now. (My friend Carl would tell me thats a good thing) Someone told me that there is no right or wrong answer here. Simply two paths to choose from. One with Kelly, and one without her. I just can't tell whether it's a fear of being alone or whether I really do love her. We've broken up before, so many many times before. We've always gotten back together. There seems to be an equal amount of my friends, that would tell me to stay or go. No matter how much advice they give though, I ultimately have to make my own choice. Now I'm rambling. I just wish someone could make this choice for me. Just tell me what I need to do. What I have to do. There has been someone like that. He's told me dozens of times what I needed to do. And he's not usually one to be wrong.
Love sucks.