How?
How can I ever make him understand what he has done to me?
Every girl he's ever stared at for her beauty is haunting every waking moment of my life.
How can he understand? He's never felt this. Nobody has ever made him feel like a worthless piece of crap the way I do. He's never felt inadequate, ugly, disgusting, worthless, unwanted. NEVER. I don't give him a reason to feel unwanted. How can I make him understand that kind of pain? Why do I care, when he obviously doesn't even care about my feelings in the first place?
Nobody will ever understand this. All I want is what I give.
If I can love him so much without feeling the need to excite myself by looking at pictures of other men, then how can he love me if he wants to excite himself with images of other women? He can't love me, not really. I just wanted him to feel the same as I do.
Why? He already told me he would have never chosen me. I obviously deserve to be humiliated, since he's stuck with someone he didn't want. Well, fine. Just fine. Then he'll be stuck with someone who loves him, and he'll never know the pain and humiliation that I know, because I'd never do it to him. What a sweet deal!!!!
Every girl he's ever stared at for her beauty is haunting every waking moment of my life.
How can he understand? He's never felt this. Nobody has ever made him feel like a worthless piece of crap the way I do. He's never felt inadequate, ugly, disgusting, worthless, unwanted. NEVER. I don't give him a reason to feel unwanted. How can I make him understand that kind of pain? Why do I care, when he obviously doesn't even care about my feelings in the first place?
Nobody will ever understand this. All I want is what I give.
If I can love him so much without feeling the need to excite myself by looking at pictures of other men, then how can he love me if he wants to excite himself with images of other women? He can't love me, not really. I just wanted him to feel the same as I do.
Why? He already told me he would have never chosen me. I obviously deserve to be humiliated, since he's stuck with someone he didn't want. Well, fine. Just fine. Then he'll be stuck with someone who loves him, and he'll never know the pain and humiliation that I know, because I'd never do it to him. What a sweet deal!!!!