Inadequacy
I might as well go die somewhere.
All around me are reminders of how INADEQUATE I am. Not thin enough. Not smooth enough. Not tan enough. Lips... not plump enough. Breasts... not big or perky enough. Butt... too saggy with cellulite. Face... average at best, ugly at worst. Big nose, thin lips, giant forehead, oily skin... big chin with a cleft. Can't sing. Can't dance. Can't even fucking smile most of the time. My teeth are crooked and yellow, and I'm sure I have bad breath. Enough people have told me so!
I don't blame him for looking at other women, really. How could he not? I am so fucking inadequate, how could he NOT replace me with something beautiful to look at? All men do. They find a girl to take care of them, then feast on eye candy behind their backs. That's what ALL men do. Who cares how many hours I spend trying to look perfect? It means nothing to him. He already knows what he really wants, and I'M NOT IT.
Fuck EVERYTHING.
All around me are reminders of how INADEQUATE I am. Not thin enough. Not smooth enough. Not tan enough. Lips... not plump enough. Breasts... not big or perky enough. Butt... too saggy with cellulite. Face... average at best, ugly at worst. Big nose, thin lips, giant forehead, oily skin... big chin with a cleft. Can't sing. Can't dance. Can't even fucking smile most of the time. My teeth are crooked and yellow, and I'm sure I have bad breath. Enough people have told me so!
I don't blame him for looking at other women, really. How could he not? I am so fucking inadequate, how could he NOT replace me with something beautiful to look at? All men do. They find a girl to take care of them, then feast on eye candy behind their backs. That's what ALL men do. Who cares how many hours I spend trying to look perfect? It means nothing to him. He already knows what he really wants, and I'M NOT IT.
Fuck EVERYTHING.