Sad.
I don't think I can live with what he's done.
As a woman, a mother, and a human being... I can't live with it. Although it may be "in the past", relatively speaking, it's a part of his soul that he and I can never get back. It's part of what makes up who he is. That will never change.
His conscience doesn't mesh with mine. His values cannot possibly mesh with mine. He makes no mention or effort to make me believe there's been any change, other than empty words. How can I live with this? I can't. Our daughters can't. He did some sick things that can never be taken back. I can't deal with it logically, on any level.
I think no matter how many temporary reconciliations we have, the end is going to be the same. I cannot live with what he's done. I'm sorry that he can even live with it, because I wish he cared. I wish he felt bad. I wish he really, really cared.
But he does not.
As a woman, a mother, and a human being... I can't live with it. Although it may be "in the past", relatively speaking, it's a part of his soul that he and I can never get back. It's part of what makes up who he is. That will never change.
His conscience doesn't mesh with mine. His values cannot possibly mesh with mine. He makes no mention or effort to make me believe there's been any change, other than empty words. How can I live with this? I can't. Our daughters can't. He did some sick things that can never be taken back. I can't deal with it logically, on any level.
I think no matter how many temporary reconciliations we have, the end is going to be the same. I cannot live with what he's done. I'm sorry that he can even live with it, because I wish he cared. I wish he felt bad. I wish he really, really cared.
But he does not.