And then, redux-
in that of course as soon as I get to such a space within all the old deep level programming rises up to the surface like turds in a pool.Clouds of confusion, pain, indecision, tears, old woundings remade into new- all the classical programmed responses to going too close to core Essence.
I currently have friends staying here with me who carried me through the brief but extreme turbulence. We saw how such reactions are attempts to 'keep us on track' ie focusing on the stuff that we *don't* want rather than the things that we *do*. I got through the dark space with their help and insight- the experience was so turbulent, so stormy and so intense that now I feel utterly exhausted, drained and in need of rest.
This path definitely isn't for the weak. *faceplants*
I currently have friends staying here with me who carried me through the brief but extreme turbulence. We saw how such reactions are attempts to 'keep us on track' ie focusing on the stuff that we *don't* want rather than the things that we *do*. I got through the dark space with their help and insight- the experience was so turbulent, so stormy and so intense that now I feel utterly exhausted, drained and in need of rest.
This path definitely isn't for the weak. *faceplants*