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turn and face the strain... that's the way to do it. face into the wind, eyes squinted, watering. siiiiiggggghhhhhh. it's the hard way.
and it's the way that moves on. remember that tattoo that tony danza had in "who's the boss"? (does he have it in real life, too?) the "keep on truckin'" tattoo? i guess that's key. gotta keep moving and the only way to do that is to let go of where i am now. goddamn that's a lot to consider all at once, but i'm thinking i can manage it in pieces.
i took a huge step this week and went to a social anxiety support group that i found out about. i had trouble finding the place because i was so anxious! my head was in a terrible fog and my hands felt numb, but i found the place and made it inside. it was an eclectic group - a working class recovering addict, an out of work polish marketing man, a court-mandated single mother of 4... a few others and me. i thought i was going to die, but i talked and shared and survived. and i slept more soundly last night than i have for a long time. whew. fuck me, it was really difficult. damn.
but, i did it. i did something good for me. that's a change from where i've been and something i feel good about. still got a LONG way to go, but i've taken one step. one step ahead of where i was before.
and it's the way that moves on. remember that tattoo that tony danza had in "who's the boss"? (does he have it in real life, too?) the "keep on truckin'" tattoo? i guess that's key. gotta keep moving and the only way to do that is to let go of where i am now. goddamn that's a lot to consider all at once, but i'm thinking i can manage it in pieces.
i took a huge step this week and went to a social anxiety support group that i found out about. i had trouble finding the place because i was so anxious! my head was in a terrible fog and my hands felt numb, but i found the place and made it inside. it was an eclectic group - a working class recovering addict, an out of work polish marketing man, a court-mandated single mother of 4... a few others and me. i thought i was going to die, but i talked and shared and survived. and i slept more soundly last night than i have for a long time. whew. fuck me, it was really difficult. damn.
but, i did it. i did something good for me. that's a change from where i've been and something i feel good about. still got a LONG way to go, but i've taken one step. one step ahead of where i was before.