breakfast and understanding

[gaiafox]

what a beautiful day. i am sitting here, well rested for a change, eating a delightful breakfast of a whole wheat bagle w/ cream cheese and fig spread with a cup of tiramisu flavored coffee. it's really quite wonderful. while i do this, i am letting my mind wander where it will and enjoying the trip. i feel that in certain odd moments i can really understand and appreciate that the world is filled with such wonderous and infinite variety and i take a huge amount of pleasure that feeling of understanding and in the idea that i need not judge any of what exists because it is all what it is meant to be, in its fashion. or maybe it is more accurate to say that all that complexity is so completely arbitrary that there is no value in making judgements on it, but rather in accepting it and embracing it. i am also aware at how much my second reading of Stranger in a Strange Land has affected my perceptions. i think i should make a point of rereading that book yearly. it does things to my mind that i really like. i made the connection this morning that by understanding waiting as a form of action, i can satisfy both my internal drive to take action on anything important to me and my desire to achieve particular outcomes which can only be achieved through patience. this is something that i have had difficulty with for most of my life. i have noticed though that i can sometimes find the state in which i can cherish the feeling of waiting as an activity unto itself, taking enjoyment in the sense of rightness as time passes. this is something that i wish to cultivate in myself.

and now, getting lost for a moment in starting out the window at the perfect blue sky and the gentle shade of sun that seems to exist this morning, my thoughts seem to have wandered away from that train of thought.

i feel happy. i feel simple. i wish this feeling, very sincerely, on everyone.

with love,
-me