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**********EDIT***********courtney is right...andrew wasn't technically taking advantage of me. He really is a good boy.
I drank a lot on thursday night. I guess because Lanny is very persuasive. I ended upstairs in his room and was eventually wasted. He's very pleasant to me...but he's kinda not so pleasant to some others. I think I can comfortably say he's a little arrogant...but almost rightfully so. Except for his excessive self confidence, he's pretty decent. Eric came over too. It was strange. I guess I get a little...shameless when I have some alcohol in me. I said something about my bangs to Eric and he said they made me look hot. And we were pretty good friends and had sort of done stuff last semester and so I guess I was comfortable with him. I was like, how hot? Would you want to sleep with me? And he got up out of his chair, came over to the bed I was sitting on told me to take my pants off. I was like, are you serious and he reached over to help me. I almost freaked! I was kidding...he wasn't I guess. So I kindly informed him I was on my period. ::sigh:: Lanny kicked everyone out of the room but wanted me to stay and sleep with him there, but I didn't know him THAT well. So I managed to get myself to Andrew's room and he let me sleep with him there. He was sweet. He humored all my drunk-thoughtful questions and was very nice. I'm glad there is such a thing as a boy who won't take advantage of situations...
Friday...Dave came over. Brought vodka. Once again, I found myself drunk and on the fifth floor. WIth my gay friend Darius. Later in the morning around 4ish I guess Lanny came back and had me come up. We both fell asleep, but after a while I woke up and what-not and left him there. Went to sleep in my room for a few hours.
I drove to Green Cove Springs on Saturday (with a slight headache...) to see some family. That was nice. Came home Sunday. I hung out upstairs with Andrew. I kept him up all the way until 8 this freaking morning. Neither of us slept until 8. We slept curled up in a ball at the foot of his bed. THen I forced myself to go to class. He told me next time don't keep him up all night when he has morning classes the next day. Heh, he ended up missing his morning ones today...but I did too.
Because I kept Andrew up all Sunday night/Monday morning he decided to keep me up all Monday night/Tuesday morning. So he calls me up at 3 that morning and tells me to come up. I did. I hung out there with Juan, Andy, Jeremy and Andrew in Andrew's room. He starts pushing beer on me. So to appease him I only drank three...Jeremy and Andrew were pretty wasted and Andy was a little. Kind of like me. Juan was pretty sober. We sat around watching Family Guy episodes Andrew had on DVD. Well, they all left and I was napping in Andrew's bed. Andrew hopped in with me, leaving the Family Guy running, trying to keep me awake by tickling. So I gave up trying to sleep. So he's laying on his side poking me and while I'm fighting him, he bites me on the shoulder. Right. I guess one thing kinda led to another and the next thing you know I wake up Tuesday afternoon with bruises ranging from my neck all the way down to my hips from Andrew being a biter. I also have a swollen bottom lip. But guys, I'm still a virgin.
I don't know what to think of myself right now. I should probably feel bad, but I don't. I was worried he'd start neglecting me or acting different, but he hasn't. So it's okay I guess. But I am...confused. Lets just say confused.
God is going to smite me.
I drank a lot on thursday night. I guess because Lanny is very persuasive. I ended upstairs in his room and was eventually wasted. He's very pleasant to me...but he's kinda not so pleasant to some others. I think I can comfortably say he's a little arrogant...but almost rightfully so. Except for his excessive self confidence, he's pretty decent. Eric came over too. It was strange. I guess I get a little...shameless when I have some alcohol in me. I said something about my bangs to Eric and he said they made me look hot. And we were pretty good friends and had sort of done stuff last semester and so I guess I was comfortable with him. I was like, how hot? Would you want to sleep with me? And he got up out of his chair, came over to the bed I was sitting on told me to take my pants off. I was like, are you serious and he reached over to help me. I almost freaked! I was kidding...he wasn't I guess. So I kindly informed him I was on my period. ::sigh:: Lanny kicked everyone out of the room but wanted me to stay and sleep with him there, but I didn't know him THAT well. So I managed to get myself to Andrew's room and he let me sleep with him there. He was sweet. He humored all my drunk-thoughtful questions and was very nice. I'm glad there is such a thing as a boy who won't take advantage of situations...
Friday...Dave came over. Brought vodka. Once again, I found myself drunk and on the fifth floor. WIth my gay friend Darius. Later in the morning around 4ish I guess Lanny came back and had me come up. We both fell asleep, but after a while I woke up and what-not and left him there. Went to sleep in my room for a few hours.
I drove to Green Cove Springs on Saturday (with a slight headache...) to see some family. That was nice. Came home Sunday. I hung out upstairs with Andrew. I kept him up all the way until 8 this freaking morning. Neither of us slept until 8. We slept curled up in a ball at the foot of his bed. THen I forced myself to go to class. He told me next time don't keep him up all night when he has morning classes the next day. Heh, he ended up missing his morning ones today...but I did too.
Because I kept Andrew up all Sunday night/Monday morning he decided to keep me up all Monday night/Tuesday morning. So he calls me up at 3 that morning and tells me to come up. I did. I hung out there with Juan, Andy, Jeremy and Andrew in Andrew's room. He starts pushing beer on me. So to appease him I only drank three...Jeremy and Andrew were pretty wasted and Andy was a little. Kind of like me. Juan was pretty sober. We sat around watching Family Guy episodes Andrew had on DVD. Well, they all left and I was napping in Andrew's bed. Andrew hopped in with me, leaving the Family Guy running, trying to keep me awake by tickling. So I gave up trying to sleep. So he's laying on his side poking me and while I'm fighting him, he bites me on the shoulder. Right. I guess one thing kinda led to another and the next thing you know I wake up Tuesday afternoon with bruises ranging from my neck all the way down to my hips from Andrew being a biter. I also have a swollen bottom lip. But guys, I'm still a virgin.
I don't know what to think of myself right now. I should probably feel bad, but I don't. I was worried he'd start neglecting me or acting different, but he hasn't. So it's okay I guess. But I am...confused. Lets just say confused.
God is going to smite me.