Christmas eve musings and whatnots
It's Christmas eve already and yet I'm not in the least bit Chrismassy vibe at all. :| I don't know, but there's just something about this year that got me off track, big time. Usually, I'm like a little kid come Christmas time, giddy and all excited. But this year, there's something off.. I dunno if it's me, my surroundings or just the events that happened to me. But this year has been a series of extreme up and downs, that there were moments that I don't know what to feel anymore. It kinda leaves me feelin' blank inside. Or maybe I'm just weird like that. *sighs*
But yeah, while everyone (or atleast everyone I know) is enjoyin' the preparations for the festivities.. I'm here, alone in my room and staring at nothing in particular. OK, that just sounds plain depressing. LOL. but yeah, not really in the mood to mingle and all. My cousins and uncles and aunts are all downstairs but doesn't feel up to joining them just yet, maybe later (it's not like I have a choice, I'd need to go down, or I'm gonna get a dressing down from everyone if I don't.)
One thing I can conclude is that this year is more bad than good for me. LOL. Soooo not my year. So please 2011, do me a favor, speed up and go already. I'm ready to welcome 2012 with open arms and with a positive thinking that it will be a better year for me, bringing me more good things and positivity.
I should get ready, dinner in a while. pffft! maybe I'll wear my Dreamboys 2011 shirt to get me in a bit of a happy mood, donchathink?
with that said (even if I'm pretty much a grinch this christmas season.. :P) MERRY CHRISTMAS f-list!! Have a happy holidays everyone!! ^_^