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Heres the lowdown:
If he was really my friend he wouldn't push the subject after I told him that I wasn't going to change my mind. Yes I have fun with him. Yes I think he's a wonderful person. I would even go as far as to say that yes I love him. But sometimes love/relationships can be difficult. And pushing the matter is only pushing me farther away. As I said before, if I'm making a mistake than someday I will face the consequences, but its not his place to call me out on it. He is being selfish to say that I'm not doing what I want right now. If I wanted something different of course I would go for it. I broke up with my bf once, and I was not happy. Its not for the fact that I need someone, even tho I know I think I do. Its for the fact that he is who I want to be with. I'm sorry that he can't handle just being my friend right now. I told him if circumstances were different that I would be more than willing to give it a chance, but the fact of the matter is, circumstances are what they are. And there is nothing I want to do about it.
I talked to my friend Brendan this morning because I didn't want to talk to anyone who knew either of them to avoid tinting their view of the situation. He said that if you were truly my friend, that after the first time I gave you my answer, you would have dropped it. He said that when in a relationship you no longer think only about yourself but about the welfare and condition of your said other. I think that you are far too involved in doing what you want to do when you want to do it to be involved with anyone. I do have problems wanting to live up to others expectations. You are right. But I think the biggest problem I am having with you is that you aren't willing to change at all in order to compromise. You say you are extremely adaptive, but if this was the case you wouldn't be spending all this time and energy in trying to have me change my mind. You told me that you just wanted me to be happy, well I am, maybe not as happy as you think I would be with you, but that is not your place to decide. It's mine. So you know what, if this is the end, than thats a shame. Because you didn't get what you want, you want to end our friendship. In the end we will both lose. And thats the ONLY thing that I am sorry about.
Fuck this shit I need a vacation.
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If he was really my friend he wouldn't push the subject after I told him that I wasn't going to change my mind. Yes I have fun with him. Yes I think he's a wonderful person. I would even go as far as to say that yes I love him. But sometimes love/relationships can be difficult. And pushing the matter is only pushing me farther away. As I said before, if I'm making a mistake than someday I will face the consequences, but its not his place to call me out on it. He is being selfish to say that I'm not doing what I want right now. If I wanted something different of course I would go for it. I broke up with my bf once, and I was not happy. Its not for the fact that I need someone, even tho I know I think I do. Its for the fact that he is who I want to be with. I'm sorry that he can't handle just being my friend right now. I told him if circumstances were different that I would be more than willing to give it a chance, but the fact of the matter is, circumstances are what they are. And there is nothing I want to do about it.
I talked to my friend Brendan this morning because I didn't want to talk to anyone who knew either of them to avoid tinting their view of the situation. He said that if you were truly my friend, that after the first time I gave you my answer, you would have dropped it. He said that when in a relationship you no longer think only about yourself but about the welfare and condition of your said other. I think that you are far too involved in doing what you want to do when you want to do it to be involved with anyone. I do have problems wanting to live up to others expectations. You are right. But I think the biggest problem I am having with you is that you aren't willing to change at all in order to compromise. You say you are extremely adaptive, but if this was the case you wouldn't be spending all this time and energy in trying to have me change my mind. You told me that you just wanted me to be happy, well I am, maybe not as happy as you think I would be with you, but that is not your place to decide. It's mine. So you know what, if this is the end, than thats a shame. Because you didn't get what you want, you want to end our friendship. In the end we will both lose. And thats the ONLY thing that I am sorry about.
Fuck this shit I need a vacation.
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