one of those simple moments when you look around and realize how lucky you are. [old myspace blog]
Grrraccie makes me happy..... Cuz she calls out of nowhere... only to put me on hold. But its cool cuz I get a chance to talk to Frank... he's the homie.
So because I've been training so absolutely seriously with Pauly late at night... I haven’t been getting much sleep. But it’s cool because at least this way I can watch her spar with homeless people... and our new running route is awesome. The cops flashing their lights on us and chasing us down alleys really give us that boost. She's coming back to Kenpo!!!... And she never made me prouder. I can't wait to see what kind of rivalry will brew between her and Miss Mami....
Hahah my sister has hickeys all over her neck.... she's nasty like that.... but its cool cuz she's married. But it’s still kinda gross... I would NEVER get hickeys on me! ....... NEVER. And anyone who would like to say otherwise please hush.
The boys are running around throwing limes at each other....even though they should be asleep and Ryan still has no underwear on ahhh I miss being two. My lil changita is watching the video from Walt Disney world that my other lil nephew just got back from. And there’s a really good song on right now.
Ok.....There's a spot up in the hills. where if you follow the path past the trees and houses, you can sit and chill in the darkness, surrounded by the countless stars above, and the countless lights and lives of the city below. Sometimes I just sit and think. Other times I scream and let out the frustration. Its one of the only places I go to get away, because in a weird way....it kinda reminds me of Mexico. But I can go, and let all the drama fade away. And I can come back to go on with my life... but right now... I don't think I'll be needing it for a while...
I still really really miss certain people. And only recently did I realize how long that list of people is... but our lives are meant to take different directions after a while... and I can accept that... I ran around trying to make things right for too long... and the fact that we are not connected at the moment only goes to show that I was the one supporting our connections. It makes me just a little bit sad. But I can accept it. Not as a loss, but as a lesson well learned. No I'm not just talking about ..one person... it includes him, but this also encompasses a number of other people.
Those who were torn from me....
and those who chose on their own to fade away.
It’s funny though... that even while I think about it all... There is still a smile on my face. Because I'm happy right now. I'm surrounded by people I love and who love me. And I have friends who have proven to me how much they're worth, because they've shown me how much I matter as well. Whether I'm chillin with Gracie, fighting homeless armies with Paulina. Wasting gas with Jojo, Arguing with Jimmy, being perverted with Cesar, wrestling with the little ones, talking with my Sis, and everyone else that counts. (I didn't forget you) I love that I'm ok and I wouldn't trade my life for anyone else’s.
All the shit I've been through. It’s made me strong and wise enough to know that I don't know anything, but I have a pretty good idea. I'm the Brave Dreamer. I do what I can to make a difference, and I always try to do what’s right, even if it isn't what’s best. But I'm no saint. I'm no hero. I'm just Ruben, and that makes me happy. "oh so berry jappy"
this is my life... and if you want to be a part of it.... then thank you
you'll never know how much that means to me
......and everyone else can fuck off.......
So because I've been training so absolutely seriously with Pauly late at night... I haven’t been getting much sleep. But it’s cool because at least this way I can watch her spar with homeless people... and our new running route is awesome. The cops flashing their lights on us and chasing us down alleys really give us that boost. She's coming back to Kenpo!!!... And she never made me prouder. I can't wait to see what kind of rivalry will brew between her and Miss Mami....
Hahah my sister has hickeys all over her neck.... she's nasty like that.... but its cool cuz she's married. But it’s still kinda gross... I would NEVER get hickeys on me! ....... NEVER. And anyone who would like to say otherwise please hush.
The boys are running around throwing limes at each other....even though they should be asleep and Ryan still has no underwear on ahhh I miss being two. My lil changita is watching the video from Walt Disney world that my other lil nephew just got back from. And there’s a really good song on right now.
Ok.....There's a spot up in the hills. where if you follow the path past the trees and houses, you can sit and chill in the darkness, surrounded by the countless stars above, and the countless lights and lives of the city below. Sometimes I just sit and think. Other times I scream and let out the frustration. Its one of the only places I go to get away, because in a weird way....it kinda reminds me of Mexico. But I can go, and let all the drama fade away. And I can come back to go on with my life... but right now... I don't think I'll be needing it for a while...
I still really really miss certain people. And only recently did I realize how long that list of people is... but our lives are meant to take different directions after a while... and I can accept that... I ran around trying to make things right for too long... and the fact that we are not connected at the moment only goes to show that I was the one supporting our connections. It makes me just a little bit sad. But I can accept it. Not as a loss, but as a lesson well learned. No I'm not just talking about ..one person... it includes him, but this also encompasses a number of other people.
Those who were torn from me....
and those who chose on their own to fade away.
It’s funny though... that even while I think about it all... There is still a smile on my face. Because I'm happy right now. I'm surrounded by people I love and who love me. And I have friends who have proven to me how much they're worth, because they've shown me how much I matter as well. Whether I'm chillin with Gracie, fighting homeless armies with Paulina. Wasting gas with Jojo, Arguing with Jimmy, being perverted with Cesar, wrestling with the little ones, talking with my Sis, and everyone else that counts. (I didn't forget you) I love that I'm ok and I wouldn't trade my life for anyone else’s.
All the shit I've been through. It’s made me strong and wise enough to know that I don't know anything, but I have a pretty good idea. I'm the Brave Dreamer. I do what I can to make a difference, and I always try to do what’s right, even if it isn't what’s best. But I'm no saint. I'm no hero. I'm just Ruben, and that makes me happy. "oh so berry jappy"
this is my life... and if you want to be a part of it.... then thank you
you'll never know how much that means to me
......and everyone else can fuck off.......