oh fuck, where do we go from here.
so im pretty fucking like speechless right now. i dont know what to say about this shit. okay. so keisha and nina spent the night this weekend[oh and my cousin matthew]and we were just like hanging out all weekend.
so this morning monica goes on a "girls day" with midget and tami. when monica calls me im sleep and she says, "oh, tami is gonna stop by to see you" and im all like.."uhh..okay. why?" and she is all, "just to come see you" i thought it was really wierd first of all cuz monica doesnt know that me and tami did anything. so im sleep in my room and nina and my cousin are on different sides of the bed. and she came in my room and was like "which one of yall was fuckin in monicas house" [in refrence to the kickback some weeks ago, cuz nina fucked some guy named kc in my room] and i was a lil out of it cuz i was sleep. and she was like come here, we need to talk. and i was like uh, okay. and she took me in the back and was like "tell me the truth, who fucked" and i told her who did and she was all like i cant believe you let her do that and blah blah blah. and she was all like, your friend is a hoe and all this. and i just felt like so bad during the whole conversation.
like idk. it never really hit me that maybe it wasnt right for nina to fuck in my room. and the more i think about the more i get like..ugh. like i feel dirty. i just..idk. there are alot of stuff that i should tell nina but i dont cuz i dont want her to get mad or something but i guess that needs to change?? idk. theres just too many emmotions coming to me now. i just needa lay down.
so this morning monica goes on a "girls day" with midget and tami. when monica calls me im sleep and she says, "oh, tami is gonna stop by to see you" and im all like.."uhh..okay. why?" and she is all, "just to come see you" i thought it was really wierd first of all cuz monica doesnt know that me and tami did anything. so im sleep in my room and nina and my cousin are on different sides of the bed. and she came in my room and was like "which one of yall was fuckin in monicas house" [in refrence to the kickback some weeks ago, cuz nina fucked some guy named kc in my room] and i was a lil out of it cuz i was sleep. and she was like come here, we need to talk. and i was like uh, okay. and she took me in the back and was like "tell me the truth, who fucked" and i told her who did and she was all like i cant believe you let her do that and blah blah blah. and she was all like, your friend is a hoe and all this. and i just felt like so bad during the whole conversation.
like idk. it never really hit me that maybe it wasnt right for nina to fuck in my room. and the more i think about the more i get like..ugh. like i feel dirty. i just..idk. there are alot of stuff that i should tell nina but i dont cuz i dont want her to get mad or something but i guess that needs to change?? idk. theres just too many emmotions coming to me now. i just needa lay down.